Ok ya'll I need some BIG time prayer, and advice!
There is this guy that I have known since I was in the third grade, and if a third grader could love, I did. (his name is Damon) Well, my mom began to homeschool me after the 5th grade, and so I didn't see Damon again for three years. (8th grade) Well, when I seen him then he was so different. He was living a ruff life style, but so was I. We never really talked much, but we kept an eye out for each other, and when things went bad (and they did often) we were always there for each other without question. No "thank you", "I'm sorry", or anything. It just was. We lost touch once I hit my second semester of the 9th grade, b/c that's when I finally realized that God wasn't a game. So, I had to leave all that behind, and that meant leaving him, and changing my life.
A year and a half ago my friend Adam (whom I was "talking" to at the time) came in church with a guest. The guest was Damon. They came in late though, so we had already done praise and worship, and I looked back to see if Adam had actually made it to church, and when I did... BAM! There was Damon smiling right at me! I couldn't help but smile, but I was SO shocked that I didn't know what to do. Well, I avoided Adam and Damon for as long as I could, and then Adam pegged me in a corner and said "I'd like you to meet my best friend Damon" I was like oh Lord please no! They were BEST FRIENDS! (after that day, Damon began to change things in his life)
Well any hoo later that day, as is the custom all the teens came and hung out at my house until late hours of the night, and well, Damon set in to get me to open up to him that night. He flirted like tomorrow was never going to come. I liked Adam, and Adam liked me, but this was Damon. I tried my best to keep a wall up and not let him affect me. Adam took Damon aside and told him that I was going to be his girl, and that he better back off. The warning didn't really work.
About three months later I go on a mission trip to India, and by this time my feelings for them both were so strong that I didn't know what to do! I felt guilty b/c I cared for them both! But I couldn't help it. I prayed and prayed. I made up my mind that when I got back from India I would go with one or the other.
I get back from India, Damon and my cousin Charity have fallen for each other, and Adam wouldn't talk to me for two months. I didn't have to choose either. It ended up that Adam came to me three months later and asked me if we could start dating. I said yes. For a year we were in a relationship that wasn't the best. In the end he cheated on me, but while I was with Adam, Damon tried to get me to leave him and go out with him. I told him no. (Damon and Charity never got together, but a lot happened there.)
Now Adam and I have been broken-up for over three months, and last week Damon asked me out. I said yes. I didn't think, and I know that. I just did what I thought I knew was my heart was telling me to do, but it wasn't. My heart belongs to God, and I know that I really want to do His will. As I said before, after that first time at church Damon began to make changes in his life. Key word there is "Damon." It didn't last b/c he wouldn't quit being so stubborn and give things to God. So now he's still not accepted Yeshua, and Yeshua is my LIFE! The bible says to be ye not unequally yoked, and to obey your parents. Well we are unequally yoked, and my mom doesn't like his life style (naturaly) so she doesn't want us to be in a relationship, but I can't find it in my heart to let him go! This is something I have wanted since I was nine! Finally I have it just to realize that I must give it up for the Glory. It hurts. I love God more that I love anyone, more than Damon... So I know that I will do the right thing, but I need ya'lls prayers so badly, and I would really like to hear what ya'lls thoughts are on all this. I know it's pretty long, and I'm sorry for that.
Thank you so much!
There is this guy that I have known since I was in the third grade, and if a third grader could love, I did. (his name is Damon) Well, my mom began to homeschool me after the 5th grade, and so I didn't see Damon again for three years. (8th grade) Well, when I seen him then he was so different. He was living a ruff life style, but so was I. We never really talked much, but we kept an eye out for each other, and when things went bad (and they did often) we were always there for each other without question. No "thank you", "I'm sorry", or anything. It just was. We lost touch once I hit my second semester of the 9th grade, b/c that's when I finally realized that God wasn't a game. So, I had to leave all that behind, and that meant leaving him, and changing my life.
A year and a half ago my friend Adam (whom I was "talking" to at the time) came in church with a guest. The guest was Damon. They came in late though, so we had already done praise and worship, and I looked back to see if Adam had actually made it to church, and when I did... BAM! There was Damon smiling right at me! I couldn't help but smile, but I was SO shocked that I didn't know what to do. Well, I avoided Adam and Damon for as long as I could, and then Adam pegged me in a corner and said "I'd like you to meet my best friend Damon" I was like oh Lord please no! They were BEST FRIENDS! (after that day, Damon began to change things in his life)
Well any hoo later that day, as is the custom all the teens came and hung out at my house until late hours of the night, and well, Damon set in to get me to open up to him that night. He flirted like tomorrow was never going to come. I liked Adam, and Adam liked me, but this was Damon. I tried my best to keep a wall up and not let him affect me. Adam took Damon aside and told him that I was going to be his girl, and that he better back off. The warning didn't really work.
About three months later I go on a mission trip to India, and by this time my feelings for them both were so strong that I didn't know what to do! I felt guilty b/c I cared for them both! But I couldn't help it. I prayed and prayed. I made up my mind that when I got back from India I would go with one or the other.
I get back from India, Damon and my cousin Charity have fallen for each other, and Adam wouldn't talk to me for two months. I didn't have to choose either. It ended up that Adam came to me three months later and asked me if we could start dating. I said yes. For a year we were in a relationship that wasn't the best. In the end he cheated on me, but while I was with Adam, Damon tried to get me to leave him and go out with him. I told him no. (Damon and Charity never got together, but a lot happened there.)
Now Adam and I have been broken-up for over three months, and last week Damon asked me out. I said yes. I didn't think, and I know that. I just did what I thought I knew was my heart was telling me to do, but it wasn't. My heart belongs to God, and I know that I really want to do His will. As I said before, after that first time at church Damon began to make changes in his life. Key word there is "Damon." It didn't last b/c he wouldn't quit being so stubborn and give things to God. So now he's still not accepted Yeshua, and Yeshua is my LIFE! The bible says to be ye not unequally yoked, and to obey your parents. Well we are unequally yoked, and my mom doesn't like his life style (naturaly) so she doesn't want us to be in a relationship, but I can't find it in my heart to let him go! This is something I have wanted since I was nine! Finally I have it just to realize that I must give it up for the Glory. It hurts. I love God more that I love anyone, more than Damon... So I know that I will do the right thing, but I need ya'lls prayers so badly, and I would really like to hear what ya'lls thoughts are on all this. I know it's pretty long, and I'm sorry for that.
Thank you so much!
