Hi!
First of all: Stop with depressed & thinking everyone hates me , because that's not true , and even if all the world hates you , God doesn't! , and that's something to think about! , the Creator of everything Loves you!.
Second: You shouldn't Be jealous! , Pray when you feel that! Pray that God help you overcome this!.
I tried To kill myself years ago! i was alone and no one was going to stop me! i was ready , But I heard a voice , That told me That everything is going to be allright , and i didn't kill myself, you should read my testimony in this page , it's in edification , testimonies ---) second topic by user paulg 1993 ! i know it will encourage you!.
Third: Please talk to your pastor so he can pray for you! , and find a group at your church that can pray for you.
and look at your signature : " God is under Control" , Yes He Is!!! , remember ,the problem you are facing is not eternal! , it will end!.
You are in my Prayers
Pablo