I need to vent

[Michie]

Thanks Karin.

I just e-mailed the Deacon.

Nice to see ya girlie!

 

[BelindaP]

Karin is right. Often, the spirit will hear, even if the body does not. Be there for her and know that she is in Jesus' hands now.

 

[Michie]

Please keep up your prayers for Betty. You all were right. She knew I was there. Lots of hand holding & trying to talk. I can't understand her.

I have a clearer picture of what happened now. I heard from the priest. I guess it stemmed from the nurses. So please disregard my fears when I was upset.

I just wish they would keep me more informed because I do worry.

I plan on going there tomorrow for more hand holding. I've still not seen any family or visitors.

I'll try to give a clearer picture when it's over.

It's hard to discuss in the midst of it.

But please don't forget to pray for Betty.

 

[RobNJ]

Praying!!

 

[Criada]

Still praying.
For you as well.

 

[Albion]

Am I disturbed or upset? I'm something...I dunno. Should I be?

IMO, you did just right. I can't say that about some of those other folks.

 

[Michie]

Went to see Betty today & just missed her. She was sent to ER. She spiked a fever & was unresponsive.

Talked to the nurses & her family has not been out once. I'm not judging because I don't know the situation but I still found it just very sad.

I went to ER & prayed & held her hand. She is really looking like she is exiting. The nurses told me that they thought she was through. I called the priest & told him. I assume he went out too.

I'll check again tomorrow. But I really don't think she'll make it through the weekend. Keep up the prayers.

Thank you.

 

[Lisa0315]

Am I disturbed or upset? I'm something...I dunno. Should I be?

I always question myself. Scold myself, you name it.

Anyway, last week when I was getting prepared to do my communion duties, I stopped off at Church to get the Eucharist from the tabernacle. As I went in to get the key I saw my two priests & our deacon in discussion. The head priest stopped me & informed me that Betty, one of the people I see has been heard to be gossiping. Just about people in Church particularly. I was shocked. I've never heard her say anything bad about anyone from Church. I mean, she jokes but they are racy off-topic jokes. And one guy she was said to be talking about visits her & I know he jokes with her. A guy in his seventies. They always joke about getting married, etc. Just silly stuff.

The only person I have heard her discuss was her doctor. Does not like her doctor. Not a good bedside manner or something & I guess he screws around with his nurse or something. I just basically change the subject when it comes up.

Anyway, my priest said he discussed it with nursing staff & they said they would try to curb her from it if they heard her doing it.

I went out that day to give her communion & she was just staring off into space. Not talking hardly at all. I felt really bad for her. But I was not sure if it had anything to do with what I was told. She took communion but was very quiet. Not our usual chats & giggling. I told her I would see her the following week & hoped she felt better.

I called the priest & left a voicemail for him that I was concerned. Betty was not herself & I felt bad for her. Also, that I have never heard her discuss anyone in Church in a bad way.

Never got a reply but I really did not expect to.

So this week, I'm out making my rounds. Betty is usually my last I give communion to because she likes to talk & laugh & just generally discuss her feelings.

I was shocked & upset. She was responsive but barely. She was cold. She just took a miniscule piece of communion & I talked her into that. She was COLD. She looked like she was in the process of dying.

She was barely audible & tried to hold my hand. She tried to squeeze it but it was very weak. I was soooo upset. I told her to get better & I loved her, etc.

Before I left the facility I called the office & asked to talk to the priests. Nobody there. Deacon? Nobody there. So I left a voicemail with the Deacon. I'm sure he could tell I was frustrated. After I left, I decided to swing by the Church. Found our assistant priest there praying & I asked to speak with him. I basically told him my feelings. Told him that normally, I would not be so upset but since that conversation lastweek I was afraid that she was losing her spirit. I mean, if she can't just be herself & if people were curbing her conversation... you know? Especially older sick people.

He did not say much but said he would go out. I did reassure him that I asked the employeees if she was sick & they affirmed that she was. No game of possum or just being upset. I mean, she was cold!

So now I feel bad. I feel bad that maybe the priests & deacon feel I'm accusing them. I'm not really & I don't know what they heard. She is not well & maybe the timing of all this happening was just a coincidence. I worry about what they think. I imagine scenerios of Betty trying to joke & nurses quelling her so she just gives up. I dunno. But I'm uncomfortable with how I feel & everything else I mentioned.

Am I overreacting?

Am I letting my imagination run wild?

You did the right thing! My blood is boiling just reading it.

Lisa

 

[Michie]

You did the right thing! My blood is boiling just reading it.

Lisa

Well that is how it looked. Thats why I freaked out with all sorts of scenerios dancing in my mind. I get the impression it was other things coming into play. Convoluted to say the least.

I just need to be more informed. Which can be very difficult in medical/religious situations.

 

[Colabomb]

praying for betty.

I don't have any advice sadly .

 

[Michie]

Update.

Went to the hospital.

You would not believe it. She is alert & trying to talk. Even had a sucker in her mouth!

This is pretty amazing seeing how everyone thought she was a goner yesterday. She is not out of the woods but hey....it's something.

Thank you for the prayers.

Continued prayers appreciated.

 

[edie19]

Praise God