Please hear my cry. This may sound very cliched or very pitiful to you but I would appreciate it if you would spare me the "I told you so's" and listen to the entire story before you begin to decide against me.
About two years ago, I met this incredible guy; we were first great friends then after about a year, we decided to take the friendship one step up and we began a very intimate and loving relationship. Now, here's where everything goes wrong. First of all, the age difference threatened our relationship (he is about 5 years older than I am), and then the distance threatened us. But we endured a year of this. People opposed our relationship, even our own families, but we wouldn't hear of it... I know I'm young... and I know many people oppose the word "love" spoken from a teenager, but I have to stress to you, it was love. It had to be.
Our relationship was great for the two of us, but all of a sudden, out of the blue, I recieved an e-mail from him telling me that he wants to break up because it had become too much to handle the relationship. And I wrote back to him stating that I agreed... Now we're apart; after an entire year of devotion and love, breaking up is proving to be the hardest thing that I have ever faced. Tears are constant and the heart ache that I feel is greater than any other pain that I've felt before! But the worst of it all is this:
It was my choice to let him go. If I were to keep him, he and I would have gone through a lot more trouble, pain, and stress just trying to help our relationship endure other people's strong opinions and the instability we are both feeling from everyday life. So, out of our best interests, I let him go. I really didn't want to, but I felt like that this is the only way he'll be able to find himself and be happy. I know I did the right thing for not only him but for myself... but I feel like I'm breaking apart.
I'm falling apart. He was the person I came to whenever I needed to let go and relax. He was the person that I came to whenever I needed someone to care and love me... he was my serenity. But now, my serenity is gone and I don't feel whole anymore. And all I ask now is this:
Please pray for me because I need strength to move forward. Please pray for me so I will be able to keep going in my life and live it to the fullest once again. Please pray for my boyfriend too, so that he may find himself and become an independent person again... But most of all, please pray so that him and I will be able to trust and confide in God again... We are lost, and we have been lost for some time now... I need to find God again, and in Him I know I'll be able to keep going... so please, please pray for the two of us. Thank you.
About two years ago, I met this incredible guy; we were first great friends then after about a year, we decided to take the friendship one step up and we began a very intimate and loving relationship. Now, here's where everything goes wrong. First of all, the age difference threatened our relationship (he is about 5 years older than I am), and then the distance threatened us. But we endured a year of this. People opposed our relationship, even our own families, but we wouldn't hear of it... I know I'm young... and I know many people oppose the word "love" spoken from a teenager, but I have to stress to you, it was love. It had to be.
Our relationship was great for the two of us, but all of a sudden, out of the blue, I recieved an e-mail from him telling me that he wants to break up because it had become too much to handle the relationship. And I wrote back to him stating that I agreed... Now we're apart; after an entire year of devotion and love, breaking up is proving to be the hardest thing that I have ever faced. Tears are constant and the heart ache that I feel is greater than any other pain that I've felt before! But the worst of it all is this:
It was my choice to let him go. If I were to keep him, he and I would have gone through a lot more trouble, pain, and stress just trying to help our relationship endure other people's strong opinions and the instability we are both feeling from everyday life. So, out of our best interests, I let him go. I really didn't want to, but I felt like that this is the only way he'll be able to find himself and be happy. I know I did the right thing for not only him but for myself... but I feel like I'm breaking apart.
I'm falling apart. He was the person I came to whenever I needed to let go and relax. He was the person that I came to whenever I needed someone to care and love me... he was my serenity. But now, my serenity is gone and I don't feel whole anymore. And all I ask now is this:
Please pray for me because I need strength to move forward. Please pray for me so I will be able to keep going in my life and live it to the fullest once again. Please pray for my boyfriend too, so that he may find himself and become an independent person again... But most of all, please pray so that him and I will be able to trust and confide in God again... We are lost, and we have been lost for some time now... I need to find God again, and in Him I know I'll be able to keep going... so please, please pray for the two of us. Thank you.
for you! Breaking up like this is so painful...
