I need some help getting my problem into perspective.

[cze_026]

I not sure how best to phrase this. To start, I have a job that is just that a job. In and of itself provides me with no satisfaction or joy. I do this daily chore only because it pays the bills, which are numerous enough to make just walking away unfeasible.

My passion lies elsewhere. My soul lies in painting and sculpture. When I am at work, all I think about is spending time at the easel. When I am unable to satisfy my passion, I become a knotted up inside. I get short tempered and irritable. No matter what I seem to do or how succinctly I explain it, the people around me seem fit to throw stones (if you can excuse the analogy) to block my path. Whether it is continual interruptions while I am working, or adding to my daily "honey-dos" till it is so late, that I am too tired and frustrated to accomplish anything (or it is late enough that it is time for bed, my day starts at 0500), I can't seem to find a way around this, and work towards what I know I should be doing.

Even when I am able to bow out of an activity, to work in my modest little studio, I get the "Honey, since you are not going ______, you can do _______" list. I am at the end of my tether. I don't know what to do .

I don't what this passion of mine to be a mere hobby. I have enough hobby interests, that I am ignoring and neglecting. If it is doomed to be a hobby, I would rather not even bother. It would be preferable to push all my stuff in a heap and set it ablaze. The fact is, I am tired of feeling so uptight and angry over this. No matter what I seem to try, this vicious circle continues.

Anyone have suggestions, insights, thoughts, or ideas? I need something.

Thanks,
Cze

 

[TexasSky]

You need to sit down with whoever is giving you that "honey do," list and say, "IF you love me, you MUST understand that I NEED time to fulfill this part of myself. I provide a living because I have to, and I know that you need help with some of the daily things, but this is not a hobby with me. This is a deep yearning inside of me that I need to fulfill and being taken away from it by work and chores and honey-do lists makes me resentful of people taking away my passion. You wouldn't deny me food. Please don't deny me uninterrupted studio time. Let's agree that from 7 to 9 you won't interrupt me to do something for you. If you want to talk to me while I work, fine, but don't interrupt me to "do something" for you, and at least 8 hours every weekend are mine to work in the studio."

 

[Johnnz]

It is hard to earn a living in the arts. You must be realistic here, and anything you do should be agreed bewteen the both of you.

Your wife must be a passion for you too. Both of you need to talk and agree, but recognise she has needs and desires too that only you can fulfill.

John
NZ

 

[Anti Existance]

Take one day in the week off and make it a cze_026 day.(or half a day) , say to your wife, this time is 'solemnly' dedicated to my love for art, i do not tolerate 'any' kind of disturbances while im at it. (just put a lock on your door,isolate yourself whatever is necessary) do not allow that time to be taken away from you. Yes it might take a sacrifice, but sacrifices are needed to gain something in life.

 

[UnitynLove]

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[silentpoet]

What one thing would you have to do or believe to follow your dreams?

 

[Mind_Over_Matter]

I not sure how best to phrase this. To start, I have a job that is just that a job. In and of itself provides me with no satisfaction or joy. I do this daily chore only because it pays the bills, which are numerous enough to make just walking away unfeasible.

My passion lies elsewhere. My soul lies in painting and sculpture. When I am at work, all I think about is spending time at the easel. When I am unable to satisfy my passion, I become a knotted up inside. I get short tempered and irritable. No matter what I seem to do or how succinctly I explain it, the people around me seem fit to throw stones (if you can excuse the analogy) to block my path. Whether it is continual interruptions while I am working, or adding to my daily "honey-dos" till it is so late, that I am too tired and frustrated to accomplish anything (or it is late enough that it is time for bed, my day starts at 0500), I can't seem to find a way around this, and work towards what I know I should be doing.

Even when I am able to bow out of an activity, to work in my modest little studio, I get the "Honey, since you are not going ______, you can do _______" list. I am at the end of my tether. I don't know what to do .

I don't what this passion of mine to be a mere hobby. I have enough hobby interests, that I am ignoring and neglecting. If it is doomed to be a hobby, I would rather not even bother. It would be preferable to push all my stuff in a heap and set it ablaze. The fact is, I am tired of feeling so uptight and angry over this. No matter what I seem to try, this vicious circle continues.

Anyone have suggestions, insights, thoughts, or ideas? I need something.

Thanks,
Cze

Yeah, I'm currently having the same problem. I want to be a professional basketball player. I know I can be just as good as Kobe Bryant, but I don't have the time to practice I have to work.

Ok, what was wrong with that last paragraph I wrote. Please reread what you wrote.

 

[HVNbound]

You need to sit down with whoever is giving you that "honey do," list and say, "IF you love me, you MUST understand that I NEED time to fulfill this part of myself. I provide a living because I have to, and I know that you need help with some of the daily things, but this is not a hobby with me. This is a deep yearning inside of me that I need to fulfill and being taken away from it by work and chores and honey-do lists makes me resentful of people taking away my passion. You wouldn't deny me food. Please don't deny me uninterrupted studio time. Let's agree that from 7 to 9 you won't interrupt me to do something for you. If you want to talk to me while I work, fine, but don't interrupt me to "do something" for you, and at least 8 hours every weekend are mine to work in the studio."

I agree! If this is a real passion then you need to take the time to do it, the family must be understanding and give you the uninterrupted time but in turn, you can't neglect the family unit, you must take time for them as well!

I would sit down with the family (wife) and plan---from this time to this time, I have to work, on this day and this day, from this time to this time, I have uninterrupted time to do my thing, on this day I do my "honey-do's" and on this day is family day (wife and me day) Put it on a poster board or dry erase board so everyone knows what's what.

As far as your job goes, I don't know what you do but you need to concentrate on the job at hand, you could get hurt, someone else could get hurt or you could get fired!