hello, im 21 male, born Christian. My life have been really bad since i graduated my high school. I dont know what did i do or what triggered all of these, or maybe satan is attacking me without me knowing it(but i go to church and pray almost everyday so im not sure if satan can still attack me) Most of my trouble are because of my physical health. People might think im joking or lying, but im serious, pls believe me. Im from head to toes, all have mild-serious diseases. Yes from head to toes, not all, but most of it, like my eyes, nose, hand, legs, skin, internal organs...i already have some choronical diseases. I dont want to go in more detail about it because it will be a wall of texts.
Fortunately none of my disease is life threatening, but the most serious one is i think is i will go blind before i can even reach 30 years old. I did go visit my doctor every years but my disease is too serious. Let alone this, i still have many other diseases, and all of it needs money to cure them, alot. I cant go to work because my body is weak and even if i work i dont think the money will be enough to cover all my medical expenses. Up until now, my parents helped me for all the money but our family are not very rich. I can see that everytime my parents paid the money for my medical expenses, they didnt say anything bad but i can tell from their face, they are not looking that great because of the amount...
Because of all of this, i think i started to have some mild mental health issues. Like maybe if i die now, my parents can spent those money at the better place, invest money in my healthy sibling or even get themselves a stressless, happy and luxury life... But i know as a Christian we shouldnt suicide. Im not too worry about this since i know i has a strong will but strong will alone cant beat my physical health issues...
How i wish Jesus can appear before me like in Bible said and heal me with one touch...
Fortunately none of my disease is life threatening, but the most serious one is i think is i will go blind before i can even reach 30 years old. I did go visit my doctor every years but my disease is too serious. Let alone this, i still have many other diseases, and all of it needs money to cure them, alot. I cant go to work because my body is weak and even if i work i dont think the money will be enough to cover all my medical expenses. Up until now, my parents helped me for all the money but our family are not very rich. I can see that everytime my parents paid the money for my medical expenses, they didnt say anything bad but i can tell from their face, they are not looking that great because of the amount...
Because of all of this, i think i started to have some mild mental health issues. Like maybe if i die now, my parents can spent those money at the better place, invest money in my healthy sibling or even get themselves a stressless, happy and luxury life... But i know as a Christian we shouldnt suicide. Im not too worry about this since i know i has a strong will but strong will alone cant beat my physical health issues...
How i wish Jesus can appear before me like in Bible said and heal me with one touch...
