I need some guidance, please help me.

[Script]

OK I have a lot to get off my chest so let me start with that. My problems are pretty deep so I am just going to lightly touch on the ones that are the most disturbing.



I’m going to get into this fast and im going to keep it as brief as possible. Sorry im a get to the point kind of guy.



When I was in my younger teens approx 13 - 15 I was some what of a disturbed child. It was a faze that I overcame, however I made some horrible possibly irreversible mistakes. Ill start first off by taking you back to when I was around 13 years old. I and some friends broke into a grave yard to see the notorious "Witches Grave" I was being stupid and pried a small crucifix off of a grave stone. When I ended up getting it home it sat on a shelf for a few weeks and I cut off the hands and feet of the crucifix, and maybe the head I don’t remember. Why, you ask? Ill keep it short I WAS A STUPID KID!! I think I was rebelling from my roots which were a very conservative Christian family.



On to the next horrible sin,



I was probably fifteen at the time this took place. I got me a little Goth girl friend and things worsened. I won’t go into much detail but here is how it went down. I can’t come to grasp why I did what I did other than sheer ignorance. To keep a long story short I was in my room with my girl friend and I was in a wired state of mind. Almost possessive if I remember correctly. I can’t remember why but I remember that I was. I got an old bible I had lying around and caught it on fire in the middle of my room on the floor. A mere few pages burnt before my mother smelt the smoke, she came into my room and shrieked a horrible noise, quickly got the bible and ran out side with it to put the flames out. I don’t want to go any further into detail than that because it makes me to upset. I was just a stupid kid.



I know at this point I sound like the devil but here me out.



Now that I have grown up a bit I am worried that the excuse of being a stupid kid isn't going to cut it when im face to face with god under judgment.

You see I have turned my life around completely and have realized that I need to lead a good Christian life; it is the type of life I want to lead. I want to devote my beliefs to the lord, and I think deep inside I always have believed. But now I am afraid I have committed unforgivable sins and cant make it into heaven no matter what I do, I need to talk to someone about it but have no one I can feel comfortable doing it with.



I’m going to college and have a girl friend that is not a Christian. I am thinking about breaking up with her because she is not a Christian. But then I get the feeling: Who am I to break up with somebody for not believing in the lord when I my self are probably on my way to hell already because of my past.



Please comment on any thing you would like, but please answer these questions, for they are what trouble me most.



Is there any hope for me?

If I devote my self to god, will he forgive me for my horrible sins?

 

[sarahbug]

Script, first, hello and welcome to CF! Have you talked to God about all these things? Have you prayed and asked for God's forgiveness?

These two verses might help you:

1Jo 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Psa 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.

God loves you, no matter how muddled your past is.

 

[MQTA]

Love is for giving.

Love is forgiving.

Do you love yourself? Do you forgive yourself? Will you not do those kinds of things any more? The past is over, you can only learn from it and become a better person today and into the future.

 

[COMMANDO]

Script... mate, first thing i have to say is do you know what happens when you burn the Bible???? You burn a book..... thats all.
secondly mate there is nothing that you could possibly do or could possibly have done to make God hate you, He loves you no matter what..
for example John Newton was a slave trader and Through Gods Grace he was saved, and he wrote 'Amazing Grace' any way any one who wants a bit more info than i have given heres a website i found http://www.anointedlinks.com/amazing_grace.html
lucky i did do a bit of research too cause i thought it was actually Isaac Newton that was the slave trader but i found out that hes the scientist....
No one is perfect, we all have sinned and fallen short of his glory (somewhere in the Bible) and thats why Jesus came, He died so that through his perfect sacrifice we could have a restored relationship with God...
AND ONE MORE THING YOU WERE NOT A STUPID KID, we all have done stupid things (me included) but we are not stupid nor were we stupid. we done what we did because of the lack of understanding we had, or we were trying to find some thing to give us meaning for our existance (basically the search for God) just we looked in the wrong places.....
take care mate,
and God will forgive, if you ask for it, and meen it...

 

[Bizzlebin Imperatoris]

You are on the right path Script. You do believe you have sinned, and want to do whats right. As far as I can see, you just sinned like anyone else. No sin is better or worse than any other, don't forget this. You have done nothing God cannot forgive. Seek him, pray to Hi, and read His Word. If you need help with what to do after you accept forgiveness, post again. All of the great people here at CF won't let you down! God bless you!

 

[f16fan12]

I am supportive of you, Script, and I believe that if you have turned your life around then I guess your ok. But still, is there not a punishment for these things you have done? A bible is not just a book...but rather God's word. Is there even such thing as hell? No offense here to anyone, I hope.

 

[Bizzlebin Imperatoris]

The Word of God is indeed more than a book, but mere ink on paper, all created, not The Word, part of the creator. He burned a book. Don't tell someone because they burned a book they will recieve more punishment than a simple liar. All sins are worthy of death. And what are you meaning, no such thing as hell?

 

[Suzannah]

There is always hope!
There is no sin that is unforgivable that you could have committed. Our Lord is merciful, and just. He does not send people to hell for behaving badly. He also does not send people to hell because they did things in their past that they repented of. Our Lord is loving and kind, who wishes that allpeople come to him for healing and LIFE abundant!
I hope you will embrace Him. He is waiting to embrace you.

 

[f16fan12]

There is no sin that is unforgivable that you could have committed. Our Lord is merciful, and just. He does not send people to hell for behaving badly.

If there is not an unforgivable sin in existence, than why/how could there be a hell?

 

[Suzannah]

If there is not an unforgivable sin in existence, than why/how could there be a hell?

Ah....a good question! There is an answer! And one that should reserved for General Apologetics, not here, where someone is struggling. Debate here, is cheap compared the suffering being experienced by the person who posted. Please be considerate. I encourage you to ask your question in GA or some other appropriate forum. Thanks!

 

[Cright]

Welcome to CF Script!!!

Yes, there is hope for you.

Yes, if you ask God for forgivness, he will grant it.

...my best advise... read read read!

One of my favorite links to reference is www.biblegateway.com
you can search by words... so go to the site, type in "forgivness" and see what you find in there! You'll be pleasantly suprised.
There are several versions to choose from, please choose the easiest to read, and cross referance the versions when you still have questions.

God Bless,
Carina

 

[f16fan12]

Ok, Suzannah (and to Script), my apologies. I will take my question elsewhere...

 

[TheThirdLink]

Welcome to CF Script!!!

Yes, there is hope for you.

Yes, if you ask God for forgivness, he will grant it.

...my best advise... read read read!

One of my favorite links to reference is www.biblegateway.com
you can search by words... so go to the site, type in "forgivness" and see what you find in there! You'll be pleasantly suprised.
There are several versions to choose from, please choose the easiest to read, and cross referance the versions when you still have questions.

God Bless,
Carina

Yus.

Another great website is Bible.com. You can search for other words too, such as "sin", "repentance" and so forth. Anything you need help with is there.

 

[crimson_dragon]

Hey

Ask God for forgiveness and he will forgive you. Also remember that Jesus dies on the cross for our sins. God can only grant people forgiveness if they truely want it and pray to God about it.
I will also pray for you

 

[Emmy]

Dear Script,if it helps be assured that we all have sinned against the Law of God.We all had to ask for forgiveness.Andd the wonderful thing about this is,that all who repent,will be forgiven.To repent means not to do it again.Tell the Lord,what you have told us,and you will find that His great love for you,will take this burden away from you,and then be brave enough to forgive yourself.Because God has forgiven you,and will also have forgotten all about it.Why am I so sure about this?His Word the Bible tells us so and countless of men and women,young and old will testify to this.May God guide you,Your sister in Christ Emmy.

 

[Mulutka]

Script, please take what I'm about to say to heart. Please re-read my words and really think about them...

Abraham went against God and inpregnanted Hagar (his wife's maid). This is a man who is HIGHLY esteemed. [read Genesis 16]

King David, the "man after God's own heart", took Bathsheba (a married woman) had sex with her, inpregnanted her, killed her husband as to not let his secret get out... this was the man who danced without embarassment for God. The man who, I'll repeat it again, WAS AFTER GOD'S OWN HEART!!!

Paul persecuted Christians and watched Stephen, the first Christian martyer, die!!! This is the man who wrote a significant chunk of the New Testament! [read Acts 9 to find about his conversion]

Look at what God does for us : he takes sinners and makes saints out of them. He takes the very worst sinners on the face of the planet and says, "l'm going to show my everlasting love and take this sinner, this wreak of a human, and use him for My glory". This is what the Cross is all about. Thank God the Bible is full of people who, to put it blunt, royally screwed up. He takes such people to show us the extent of His love and His power. This is something not to be taken lightly or forgotten. Apply this to your life.

I was just taught a couple days ago this--> God wants us broken. God wants us broken so we see the extent of our sin and come to Him with empty pockets (so to speak). He wants all that has gotten in the way of your and His fellowship to be removed and the only way that can happen is if all that you have done is brought into the Light. Then God will take you, sins, weaknesses and all, and nurse you back to health. This brokeness is necessary so that you loose all notions of yourself and focus on God. Only then will He be able to change your heart and your life.

It sounds to me like this is what God is doing to you. You are thinking about your past sins, as you should. Not so that you feel guilty but so that you can see how horrible God sees your sins as well as how great a gift and a sacrifrice the Cross meant to Christ. Are you willing to now accept the forgiveness that God wants to give you? If you say yes, remember that you can't take it back. Once it's thrown into the depths of the sea you can't retrieve it!

The worst thing you can do after accepting Christ is allow your past life/self to interfer. Your past (fleshly) desires *must* be left at the foot of the Cross. That old you is dead-- no need beating a dead horse. Be free from guilt: Christ has taken all your sins. With this said, you can't let anything get in your way. If your girlfriend is a nonbeliever, she most likely (not a 100% though) get in the way of you "running the good race" (as Paul puts it). If you feel the Holy Spirit telling you to break up with her DON'T IGNORE HIM! HE WONT GO AWAY!!! That's His job--> to show us God's plans. But if you do decide to ignore the Spirit, how can God talk to you? How can He answer your prayers when you wont listen? Or worse yet, if you tell Him to shut up by your actions? (I'm speaking personally now: I tend to be stubborn in this area ).

 

[Mulutka]

One last bit of encouragement-- this was King David's song to the Lord when he finally faced his sins...


American Standard-ASV1901 Psalms 51
1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: According to the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.

2 Wash me thoroughly from mine iniquity, And cleanse me from my sin.

3 For I know my transgressions; And my sin is ever before me.

4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, And done that which is evil in thy sight; That thou mayest be justified when thou speakest, And be clear when thou judgest.

5 Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity; And in sin did my mother conceive me.

6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts; And in the hidden part thou wilt make me to know wisdom.

7 Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.

8 Make me to hear joy and gladness, That the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.

9 Hide thy face from my sins, And blot out all mine iniquities.

10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; And renew a right spirit within me.

11 Cast me not away from thy presence; And take not thy holy Spirit from me.

12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; And uphold me with a willing spirit.

13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; And sinners shall be converted unto thee.

14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation; `And' my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.

15 O Lord, open thou my lips; And my mouth shall show forth thy praise.

16 For thou delightest not in sacrifice; else would I give it: Thou hast no pleasure in burnt-offering.

17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: A broken and contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

 

[Sheena_Va]

I don’t want to go any further into detail than that because it makes me to upset. I was just a stupid kid.


I know at this point I sound like the devil but here me out.

Nope!!! Just a stupid kid, lol, we've all been there done that.....well maybe not exactly that, but stupid things .

Now that I have grown up a bit I am worried that the excuse of being a stupid kid isn't going to cut it when im face to face with god under judgment

The way I understand it, is that once we become Christians and ask Jesus into our hearts, and repent our sins.... we won't have to face that judgement!!

You see I have turned my life around completely and have realized that I need to lead a good Christian life; it is the type of life I want to lead. I want to devote my beliefs to the lord, and I think deep inside I always have believed.

PRAISE GOD!!!

 

[coriander]

hmm...well, you said it yourself. You were a stupid kid. I recognize that, parents recognize that, God the father of all must recognize that. You have realized you did wrong, you have sought attonement, is there anything else He can ask you to do?
As for your girlfriend, let things fall where they may. The future often holds strange things.

 

[travel far]

Take it to the Lord, lay it at His feet, ask His forgiveness, and then take His hand and walk where He takes you with your head held calm, safe and secure in His love and in the knowledge that He knows your heart and wants to give you peace.