I sit here writing this at 1:30 in the morning because I can't sleep.
I've started cutting of late, and I need help in a bad way. I hate myself. I dissapoint God and I can't stop. I know Christ took the punishment for my sins, but it seems like I'm just robbing God every time I sin. So I cut, because I don't deserve grace, and God doesn't deserve to be treated the way I treat him. I just don't know what to do. I would like to see myself hurt badly and I fear that's where it will lead to one day. I can't tell my parents, they already worry so much, and so does my girlfriend. I have cried out to God, and it is said blessed are those who mourn, but it sure doesn't feel like I'm blessed right now, and it sure doesn't feel like He is going to stick around much longer. I can't blame him. Can anyone help me?
I've started cutting of late, and I need help in a bad way. I hate myself. I dissapoint God and I can't stop. I know Christ took the punishment for my sins, but it seems like I'm just robbing God every time I sin. So I cut, because I don't deserve grace, and God doesn't deserve to be treated the way I treat him. I just don't know what to do. I would like to see myself hurt badly and I fear that's where it will lead to one day. I can't tell my parents, they already worry so much, and so does my girlfriend. I have cried out to God, and it is said blessed are those who mourn, but it sure doesn't feel like I'm blessed right now, and it sure doesn't feel like He is going to stick around much longer. I can't blame him. Can anyone help me?
