I need help

[MVAVJ]

I decided to have a full body massage and the therapist massager asked me to get all naked. Then she started to massage me <staff edit> Then ask to have sex with her and I said I can't do this but she kept telling me she likes me and I lost control and I did it.

I'm married for almost 10 years and never cheated on my wife and I love her verry much and didn't wanna cheat. After I walked out I realized what I have done and I'm in shock and can't stop crying like a child I don't want lose my wife and my family because of this. I know that if I tell this to my wife I will make her feel worse and i can't live with this hidden secret.

I don't feel innocent because I could stop her and I tried.... I stood up and try to stop her and but she said its all ok then it happened I don't know how I lost control. I just feel bad because it happened and I never wished I do this. My wife is the only one I had sex With in my life till now and o still can't believe it happened. I want to tell my wife about this but I don't know how ( I'm not the one who can hold a secret from my wife or if I try to she will know I have something to hide )

 

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[Timahani]

I am sorry that you had to endure such temptation. It seems like you feel really frustrated. However, I just want to encourage you to focus on the Lord....and his redemptive power.....Gods grace and mercy is ever so present in our life...when you feel powerless focus on the cross and ask the Lord to help you get through this rough time....God forgives......but sometimes satan tries to constantly remind of us of our fall.......just try and trust him....God Bless