Since I have become a christian I have had only depression and frustration, and here is why. You see I have a sever communication problem. I am very shy in fact shy would be a major understatment. I can't even talk to my family about regular life. Now as a christian we are suppose to witness, I don't see how it is possible for me. Now I have tried on several occasions and chickened out. A couple time I've tried to some friends. But I end up just leaving tracts places and I have handed a couple out. Now I feel like If I do witness I'm just doing it because I have to because if I don't I'm not really a christain and will go to hell. I do get out there and try I'm just so fearful of conversation that I can't do it. So I keep getting depressed and down thinking Jesus is ashamed of me. I just want to give up and forget it. what do I do I think I'm doomed. sorry this was long. thank you and pray for me.