I Need Advice

[Hermit7]

I need some advice about how I'm dealing with my OCD (at least one of the ways I deal with it).

One things that happens in my mind is that an OCD spike occurs somethings along the lines that if I do this or that, that I'm bargaining away my salvation for that "thing" (whatever that is).

So in order to counter it, I then ask God--"God please let me know if that that thought is real, somehow."

Sometimes I might attach a time to it like, please let me know somehow by 9:00 tonight or something like that.

If nothing distinct happens then I assume it wasn't real.

Is this healthy?

What should I do instead?

-Hermit

 

[flowerforever7]

Hi Hermit7,

What I notice is that you have already attributed the "if you do this or that you are bargaining away your salvation for this or that thing" thought to an OCD spike in your post; and it does sounds like a classic OCD intrusive thought. There is no need to even ask if the thought is real, because it is obviously looks like it's an OCD generated thought.

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Acts 2:38 "Peter replied, "Repent and be baptized, everyone of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit."

 

[Hermit7]

Hi flower,

Thanks again for your reply. It truly was a comfort to me.

But overall, when I'm uncertain whether a thought or feeling is OCD or not, would God really mind if I ask HIm to show me?

I know this sounds weird, but how would I know that God will tell me or confirm to me whether a thought was really from Him or from my sickness?

-Hermit

 

[flowerforever7]

Hi Hermit,

I don't don't know exactly what God is thinking, but knowing He is full of grace and understanding and that you have a neurological disorder that causes you to be unsure in areas like this, it seems like God may not mind if you asked Him. But at the same time; I am realizing part of OCD is obsessing over whether you really mean a thought or not. It's tough, I know; I deal with it. I am not sure how you would know if God was confirming it was from your sickness or not; but also, I believe God has given us the ability to research and understand. I think that learning more about this disorder by reading and talking more with people who have it, can help you start to understand how OCD opperates and see it's patterns and symptoms. This can increase the chances of you knowing whether or not something is from OCD. I know you are asking God to reassure you by signs and stuff; I am not trying to advise you not to pray to God. Prayer is important! At the same time, I think if you research the disorder more you will be able to relax a bit more because you will be able to tell what is OCD better for yourself. In my opinion, I would encourage you to pray to God for things like a good understanding of the disorder as you research it more, better overall clarity in being able to discern what are OCD thoughts, and a calm soul and peace before God as you work through this disorder. God loves you! Rest in that fact.
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Acts 2:38 "Peter replied, "Repent and be baptized, everyone of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit."

 

[Hermit7]

Wait so if I'm unsure if a thought is OCD is it likeliy to be ocd?

 

[OCD=Owie]

Generally speaking, if you get the feeling that something is OCD, then your fear is probably caused, at least in part, by your OCD. The weird strings of logic and weird thinking patterns tend to give us the feeling that something isn't quite right.

That's my opinion, at least.

 

[Hermit7]

So any thought that bothers me and is OCD related on any level i must ignore then?

 

[OCD=Owie]

Pretty much, yes. Try not to let yourself debate whether or not you will be okay, and also try not to push the thoughts out of your head. Just let them come when they come and go when they go, and get on with whatever else you have going on in your life.