I hurt Myself

[SimplyUnique]

ok, first off, i've stopped...but my problem is that my boyfriend is moving soon (i know you guys will find this all lame and stuff) and i'm afraid that, when he leaves...i will start again. because in the past, the littlest things have triggered it to start up again. i have told my youth leader, and she knows...and she has promised not to tell my parents, which i am thankful for. and i have lots of people that say i can go to them if i ever get the urge...but i'm afraid i wont listen and just go ahead and do it. so...i really need advice as to what i should do...if you can help

 

[Cat59]

Hi Babydoll

I'm glad you've realised this may be a difficult time for you, that gives you a chance to try and plan to do something to make it easier. It's good that you have such supportive friends. As the first few days may be the worse, how about trying to plan something with friends a lot that first week or so, so that you don;'t have a lot of spare time and your in company most of the time. There's a good thread here on distractions too that may give you ideas on things to do instead.
Perhaps you could also tell your parents how difficult it's going to be for you, see if they can help at all.
In the meantime, lots of and going up for you.
Cat

 

[SimplyUnique]

thanks cat. yes i have some things going on that week...but what i'm also really worried about is that the day he leaves, my grandparents return from there traveling...and knowing them my grandpa will either not notice or not care, and my grandmother will not care, tell me to get over him, to stop crying, and that i never really loved him. the day after he leaves i'm going to winsdor castle and then later that week, my parents, me, my grandparents, and i are all going to london...so i do have things planned, but normally, i'd hurt myself in the middle of the night...

 

[Cat59]

Try this thread here- to look for distractions to lead you away from hurting yourself- Jo started it and it's got some great ideas.
http://www.christianforums.com/t1450122-distractions.html
Put any triggers to hurting yourself well away from you- put them in another room or get rid of them, if you can, so that it's not easy to get to at night.
Also, have you asked to see someone, a counsellor or something like that? Perhaps your youth leader could help you organise it.

 

[Bevlina]

Cat's so right. There are some wonderful ways to distract yourself in that thread Honey.
No, you are going to miss him, think of him and think of him. That is only natural.
But, going to a new place to see new things may blunt this a little bit for you. Just hang tight.

 

[SimplyUnique]

thanks guys...no i dont plan on going to a counselour...only a few ppl here (including my bf) knows that i do it. i have a few friends in the states that know...but i just hope it'll go away.

 

[Bevlina]

Hang in there Honey! We are barracking for you!!

 

[SimplyUnique]

thanks...but...i almost did it last night, thankfully i was on the phone with my bf and i went silent so he knew what i was going to do, so he told me not to and the temptation passed

 

[SimplyUnique]

Dear God,
Forgive me for I have sinned. I gave in and hurt myself, this time it went deeper. Please forgive me for going against this.

Amen


The reason why i hurt myself is becuz i just found out that a friend that i barely knew commited suicide

 

[cracked_pelicans]

Dear God,
Forgive me for I have sinned. I gave in and hurt myself, this time it went deeper. Please forgive me for going against this.

Amen


The reason why i hurt myself is becuz i just found out that a friend that i barely knew commited suicide

Babydoll,
I am so sorry to hear about your pain. I just want you to know that God does forgive you, because you sought him with your heart. He also wants to comfort you, because he loves you and doesn't want to see you suffer. Turn to him when you are in need. God bless you.

 

[Cat59]

Hugs and prayers for Babydoll!
Please tell someone about this, honey! No one wants you to be struggling on your own and there is help out there. Perhaps your youth leader is a good one to tell..
At the very least, try telling someone how upset you are about your friend, so that they can give you some comfort.

Cat

 

[Nancy1218]

Awww Honey I am just praying that you are able to find peace in this crazy time of your life. I know it is hard and I'm sorry you are feeling so much pain. You will miss your boyfriend no one can fault you for that. And even if you bearly know someone that takes their oun life it is hard. Like everyone has said try to find distractions.

How do you think your parents will react to you cutting? It might be a good idea to tell them if you think they will be supportive and try to help you.

You are in my prayers.

 

[SimplyUnique]

If any of you has read my journal you'll know that my friend committed suicide...a different friend then the one i wrote about earlyer. No I did not SI i promise you, i just cried alot and talked to my youth leader. well pleez keep me in your prayers.

 

[Bevlina]

Indeed you are in my prayers Baby. Indeed you are. I commend you on no SI during this horrific time for you. And, I commend you thoroughly for talking to your Youth Leader about it.

 

[Cat59]

If any of you has read my journal you'll know that my friend committed suicide...a different friend then the one i wrote about earlyer. No I did not SI i promise you, i just cried alot and talked to my youth leader. well pleez keep me in your prayers.

I'm so sorry to hear it.
You and your friends family are in my prayers.
Carry on talking with your pastor about it, please.

 

[SimplyUnique]

I have been doing much better about it....and now, when I light my candles....most of the time i have no temptations! so I guess in away God is helping me through this. Also the fact that my boyfriend and I have made promises to eachother that we won't SI anymore...because I found out the used to cut. So I have a promise to keep and I don't want to break it, especially when it's with someone I love. Will you please keep my boyfriend in your prayers to?