i have this feeling

[fadedglory]

that I won't ever have any friends again. My best friends from high school found boys so they are all they care about.

I have no one.

It also feels like no matter where i go I won't ever fit in. I went away to college and didn't really fit in with the people I lived with. So I came home.

I've had a couple of jobs and I don't really fit in anywhere. So I quit them.

I have to stay at my job I have now because I can't quit. they don't like me though. no one does.

I don't know why. I'm nice/helpful/etc. the only thing is i'm shyer, but I greet them and say bye to them. I try to start conversations. I always reply when they say something.

I just wish I had a place to feel wanted/needed.

A part of me feels like if this upcoming semester doesn't get any better I should just end it all. I'm tired of being the outcast. I can't live my life like this. I need friends. I'm tired of sitting at home all the time.

I used to always go out with my friends. But I don't have any anymore.

 

[ryanb6]

No offense, but why do you keep making threads saying almost the exact same thing? God has overcome the world so that you don't have to remain powerless in the world. Get in a good church and fellowship with believers. If they don't treat you right, then find another church. You will find believers that love you.

 

[ryanb6]

you can always pm me.

 

[savvy]

I had this problem when I went to college. Didn't know anybody, all my friends were in different cities. But you have to be proactive. I was pretty shy too, but I didn't want to spend all my time by myself. Take any opportunity to socialize....if someone invites you anywhere, go! Even if you aren't interested in the activity, you will get out and meet people. I was not particularly interested in going to church, but I was invited by a classmate so I did it...and afterwards developed a big group of acquaintances to spend time with and a close friend out of the deal.
Also....Join some groups. I had free time, since I was lonely at first, so I volunteered at the English as a Second Language center to have an activity to do. Met lots of international students and found some great friends! Not to mention it led me to realize how much I enjoyed that field of work. So it's not a bad idea to follow your passions and meet people through clubs you're all interested in.

 

[jean84]

i sense a lot of familiar feelings in your post. i know what it's like to not feel wanted or accepted. but don't let those feelings overwhelm you. God has given you this great gift of life and satan wants to steal, kill and destroy you. he's attacking you with self-loathing thoughts. and when you sink into that deep hole of only thinking of yourself and how crappy you feel, you lose sight of God and the purpose he has for you. and that is to honor Him. if you had everything, friends, money, power, posessions, then you might think to yourself "I don't need God. I've got this one on my own." but because of your weaknesses God is made strong. you see, what satan intends for harm, God intends for good. don't worship yourself by only thinking about you and your problems. instead when those thoughts come into your head, start praising God. He is worthy of our praise all the time, especially when we feel like the mold that grows on crap. and if you start focusing you attention on God, you will see that everything else matters just that much less. and as you grow deeper with God, you will wake up one day and notice all the great people God has blessed you to know and love. but He has to be first. that's all He wants from you. so, don't be down. God loves you more that you can imagine. i'll be praying for you. don't give up. oh, and this really helped me: read psalm 23 a few times a day. it's amazing what reading promises about God can do for your spirit.

 

[codya517]

God loves you more that you can imagine. i'll be praying for you. don't give up. oh, and this really helped me: read psalm 23 a few times a day. it's amazing what reading promises about God can do for your spirit.

Amen, give me a pm anytime you want to talk, fadedglory. I'm sure some medium of real time communication can be established. I know what it is like to feel alone and down. Jean is right, the word can really uplift your spirits, the enemy tries to play the word down and make you think you don't "feel like it" or that you're not in the mood. Don't let him.

I suggest going in to deep prayer with God and admitting everything. I don't mean that to sound bad, but when I get like this and start focusing only on myself I go to God in prayer and I break down and pour my heart out to him on how well...stupid i am and i praise him and reconcile how my perspective slipped and fellowship is restored and He will bless you for it. God absolutely does love you, even when you feel like Job, it's all He wants is for you to come to Him and repent and reconcile. And it feels amazing afterward, it will make you want to run out in the streets and shout praises...but please look both ways first hehe

pm me anytime.