I have been selfish

[JeanR]

I have reached the point where I am not angry at Terry anymore. It has been difficult getting to this part. At times I felt that Terry in some strange way died on purpose--he left me. I know that may sound strange, but I did feel that way. I have worked through this and I know that Terry didn't have any control over this. It was his time and God took him home.

During communion at church yesterday, I was thinking how Terry was in heaven and what rejoicing he must be experiencing. I know he is happy to be with his Savior and how selfish of me to want to deny him that.

I still hurt and miss him terribly and I pray that the Lord will forgive me for my attitude.

 

[Thankful4HIM]

I'm sorry for you loss! *hugs*

 

[debbie2]

I sometimes get mad at my husband Jim for leaving me I know he didnt on purpose but I still find myself angry at him and others that are living a normal life when mine is topsy tervy I will pray for you

 

[JeanR]

Debbie,
It's ok if you go to the cemetery and really let him know that you are angry. Healing grieving will not start until you let out the anger.

Personally, my list of things I have to say to Terry is getting longer and longer. I have just a few things to say to him when I enter heaven!

Recognize your anger and you will be able to get through it. And, remember God will help you. Just keep in mind, it's ok to be angry with God, but not at God.

There will be times when you think you are not angry anymore, but it will still creep up on you. Just one day at a time--one day at a time.

Jean

 

[Romans55]

I ws angry at my husband for a long time, I know it was wrong but he left me, and no one could tell me any different then. I now know it was a stage.


Jean get a book and write letters to Terry, someone putting it down on writing, makes it more real.
I did that and wrote my feeling out in this book and it helped alot.
hugs
sandi