I hate when this happens...

[restlesslilly]

Hello everyone. I'm new here. I came across this site a few minutes ago as I was looking for a place to vent/talk about my problems.

I wasn't sure where to post in the mental health section, since the majority of the folders I have been diagnosed with.

I've been dealing with depression since I was 13 years old. I have a history of abuse, the worst of which started then. It has been so bad that I have been kicked out of college, due to having a zero gpa. Recently I had been feeling okay, but as always it comes back, again and again. Maybe its stress, I don't know. I'm a Christian and in the process of converting to a different denomination, which my family is not happy about at all. I am taking online classes from a community college in hopes of finishing school, and have a part time job thats okay. I have no idea why I have begun to feel so awful again. i was doing so well. My boyfriend thinks its because of my bipolar, but I don't know. I'm on no meds or therapy cause I lost my insurance when I turned 21. I feel so screwed up when I get like this. I don't even know if i can go to work. I have 6 hours until I have to be there, and its 2am. I feel sick and just awful. I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I just wanna curl up and disappear.

Thats all I'll say for now. Thanks for reading.

 

[inHisgripkim]

Hello everyone. I'm new here. I came across this site a few minutes ago as I was looking for a place to vent/talk about my problems.

I wasn't sure where to post in the mental health section, since the majority of the folders I have been diagnosed with.

I've been dealing with depression since I was 13 years old. I have a history of abuse, the worst of which started then. It has been so bad that I have been kicked out of college, due to having a zero gpa. Recently I had been feeling okay, but as always it comes back, again and again. Maybe its stress, I don't know. I'm a Christian and in the process of converting to a different denomination, which my family is not happy about at all. I am taking online classes from a community college in hopes of finishing school, and have a part time job thats okay. I have no idea why I have begun to feel so awful again. i was doing so well. My boyfriend thinks its because of my bipolar, but I don't know. I'm on no meds or therapy cause I lost my insurance when I turned 21. I feel so screwed up when I get like this. I don't even know if i can go to work. I have 6 hours until I have to be there, and its 2am. I feel sick and just awful. I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I just wanna curl up and disappear.

Thats all I'll say for now. Thanks for reading.

to you dear sister:

You mentioned that your insurance is no longer. Most States have a behavioral health service for those who do not have insurance. Each city has a State MH office and counseling services available. They charge you according to what you can afford. If you can't afford much, your services will be free. Here in Arizona, we have the Southern Arizona Mental Health Clinic (SAMHC). Go to your phone book and go to the State Government pages. Look under health services and start inquiring. Someone will get you the right phone number to State MH services. Note also that these services offer meds on a sliding scale. I think the most my sister every paid for her script through State was $10.00. I think her counseling sessions were free or a token $5.00 or $10.00.

Even without mental health issues, we all are prone to swings in mood do to hormone changes, diet, etc. So you may be experiencing these things along with your MH issues (i.e. bipolar).

Gool luck to you sister. May you find the Lord's peace within you.

lol kim

 

[BigToe]

A lot of therapists are willing to work out a payment that you can afford because if they are really there to do their job, it is more important you get the help you need rather than they get a big check.

Also, since you mentioned you were Christian, a lot of churches have counselors on staff that you can speak with for free. Some cities even have non-profit organizations with staff there to help people who need counseling but cannot otherwise afford it.

But you feel free to vent here all you need to. I'll listen. *snuggles*

 

[eurekat]

Hey restlesslilly hope ur stomach is feeling better (that was you right?) I'll pray for you.
eurekat

 

[Mask]

Hi restlesslilly,

I don't know if your bipolar is acting up or not but having to deal with changing churches and dealing with feeling like you are going against your family would be enough to make any person feel YUCK! I know how you must feel about changing denominations, my hubby's family had a hard time when we switched years ago. Sometimes you just have to do what you feel is right in your own heart, for you. I hope you feel better soon. Like the others suggested, you should check into the free help.

 

[restlesslilly]

Hey restlesslilly hope ur stomach is feeling better (that was you right?) I'll pray for you.
eurekat

That was me, thank you.

I'm still pretty sick. Flu I think. We just had a girl here die of meningitis so I was scared for a day or two.

Now trying to find a new place to live due to an awful roommate who has gotten worse. Its a very stressful time. Though I did get good news today that I can get free counseling in the area. Thank you all for your kind words.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Hello everyone. I'm new here. I came across this site a few minutes ago as I was looking for a place to vent/talk about my problems.

I wasn't sure where to post in the mental health section, since the majority of the folders I have been diagnosed with.

I've been dealing with depression since I was 13 years old. I have a history of abuse, the worst of which started then. It has been so bad that I have been kicked out of college, due to having a zero gpa. Recently I had been feeling okay, but as always it comes back, again and again. Maybe its stress, I don't know. I'm a Christian and in the process of converting to a different denomination, which my family is not happy about at all. I am taking online classes from a community college in hopes of finishing school, and have a part time job thats okay. I have no idea why I have begun to feel so awful again. i was doing so well. My boyfriend thinks its because of my bipolar, but I don't know. I'm on no meds or therapy cause I lost my insurance when I turned 21. I feel so screwed up when I get like this. I don't even know if i can go to work. I have 6 hours until I have to be there, and its 2am. I feel sick and just awful. I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I just wanna curl up and disappear.

Thats all I'll say for now. Thanks for reading.

hmm.. Just my opinion.

I would take college out of the picture for time being. Just get decent steady job, and put your focus on sorting everything out. To me sounds like the abuse and other factors have caused the foundation which you mentally stand on to crumble.

I would spend the year or more just trying to straighten things out and really build your relationship with Jesus. I know that sounds like the typical christian responce, but lot wisdom in new testiment, as well as the old, that can be useful. Combined with information from a professional or online sources can get some answers. Also keep praying, never hurts to ask help from our creator. Just realize the answers don't just fall in your lap or is fast as snap of your fingers.

I know your parents might not be happy, but you must go where God wants you to be. I read majority of the bible on my own, so when I did seek out a church I knew if they where BSing me or not. Best church is where you feel comfortible and paster preaches with passion. Oh man I love sermans I get at my church, from the heart and straight forward truth(s). Just make sure don't join something thats way too religous, too many rules, and rituals that not described in the bible(new testiment).

EDIT: BTW just a very handy tool for you. This website helped me uncover some of my dyfunctions. http://www.coping.org/