I Hate My Body

[Brightmoon]

You seriously sound like you’ve been the victim of narcissistic people . You might need help untangling their gaslighting from your head. That why everyone recommended therapy not because we think you’re crazy

 

[brandynicole]

You seriously sound like you’ve been the victim of narcissistic people . You might need help untangling their gaslighting from your head. That why everyone recommended therapy not because we think you’re crazy

I see. You're probably right.

 

[brandynicole]

You seriously sound like you’ve been the victim of narcissistic people . You might need help untangling their gaslighting from your head. That why everyone recommended therapy not because we think you’re crazy

Okay, I have an appointment scheduled to see a counselor. She is Christian and close to my age.

 

[salt-n-light]

I don't remember when it started, but I hate my body and any sexual parts of it.

I've had visions of literally cutting these parts out of me so that I could be pure. Showering and getting dressed is hard, so I get dressed in the dark and shower in hottest water possible. I hate seeing my skin as well, so I wear completely covered clothing even in the FL summer.

The sexual sins I committed were not safe, and I hardly remember what happened. But I'm still dealing with panic attacks and nightmares over a year later. Most nights I wake up screaming as my mind replays those incidents.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know why those men hurt me, and I don't know why I even put myself in that situation. Why would God abandon me right now when I need help the most. My prayers feel rejected.

I'm really scared.

Talk with a pyschotherapist, as it looks like you have a trauma behind your relationship with your body. Im sorry that you have been hurt . I've had one, and they are really good with helping you navigate your triggers and the connections to our thoughts and physical sensations. Also looking at groups, specifically faith-based groups that are going through similar trauma would help as well. Give you room to hash out with those who more can relate and also check-up on you while you're recovering.

But know that you having your body,life, soul is not a mistake. God have purpose in all of us, and the vessel we have is the temple for Jesus to dwell. Jesus has never left you nor forsaken you, for He had you in mind when he died on the cross. He grieves with us in our sorrow and celebrates with us in our joy. Never feel that you are alone in what youre going through as well as feel lonely in your emotions. You are well loved.

Be encouraged.