I posted about this guy on here four years ago. I met him on Reddit during a time I was searching for a special friend. I had prayed to God for weeks to send me someone I could feel connection to. We hit it off pretty well and could talk for hours. We took to texting and calling and video messaging. He is a believer as well.
I took a flight to see him last week. It was just a day trip and I made sure my dad knew where I was going and when I expected to be back. We spent the day visiting parks and driving around. He showed me his town and the places where he grew up. I had a good time. When it was time for me to go back home he waited with me at the airport until my flight was ready. We held hands and it was the most amazing feeling ever. I felt so comfortable around him! I thanked God on my flight home for letting me experience that. I am 28 years old now and have never been in any sort of relationship with a guy before, so this was quite special to me.
A week before my visit, we had talked about moving on with our lives. The truth is, neither of us is willing to relocate if things were to get serious. We're both resistant to change. The purpose of my visit was really to have closure and say goodbye.
But now that I visited him, I have been finding myself wanting to see him again. I really would like to continue getting to know him in person. I felt peaceful around him. I have talked to him online for four years and it was just crazy how we finally got to spend time together in real life. It went better than I thought.
We aren't talking anymore, but I just can't help but feel sad.
My friend is autistic and has some issues, he was apparently abused by a church when he was little and has trouble believing God loves him. His whole family is a wreck and his dad is toxic. He is also very, very depressed. But I still care about him, and I want him to get help and become a healthy person.
Part of me wants to reach back out to my friend and ask if he wants to continue getting to know each other in person. But the logical part of me says to just let it go if this is what he wants and to respect that. This was such a special relationship in my life and it just doesn't feel right to let it fly away like this.
I took a flight to see him last week. It was just a day trip and I made sure my dad knew where I was going and when I expected to be back. We spent the day visiting parks and driving around. He showed me his town and the places where he grew up. I had a good time. When it was time for me to go back home he waited with me at the airport until my flight was ready. We held hands and it was the most amazing feeling ever. I felt so comfortable around him! I thanked God on my flight home for letting me experience that. I am 28 years old now and have never been in any sort of relationship with a guy before, so this was quite special to me.
A week before my visit, we had talked about moving on with our lives. The truth is, neither of us is willing to relocate if things were to get serious. We're both resistant to change. The purpose of my visit was really to have closure and say goodbye.
But now that I visited him, I have been finding myself wanting to see him again. I really would like to continue getting to know him in person. I felt peaceful around him. I have talked to him online for four years and it was just crazy how we finally got to spend time together in real life. It went better than I thought.
We aren't talking anymore, but I just can't help but feel sad.
My friend is autistic and has some issues, he was apparently abused by a church when he was little and has trouble believing God loves him. His whole family is a wreck and his dad is toxic. He is also very, very depressed. But I still care about him, and I want him to get help and become a healthy person.
Part of me wants to reach back out to my friend and ask if he wants to continue getting to know each other in person. But the logical part of me says to just let it go if this is what he wants and to respect that. This was such a special relationship in my life and it just doesn't feel right to let it fly away like this.
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