I fight with evil inside

[Catherineanne]

Hiya Lifewanderer. I assume you are still hiding; that is a really sensible thing to do, while you feel unsure of things. Stay safe, won't you?

 

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[Catherineanne]

Hello Everyone,

Please pray for lifewanderer and her family.

Thank you and God bless,

Thanks for letting us know, S.

 

[Catherineanne]

I was gone. They wouldn't let me have a bible so I left. I don't expect anyone to speak to me. I know I am not like any of you. I know I do not belong. I just came to add why the angels fell on my homepage. I expect nothing else. I know I am wrong and I apologize.

Lifewanderer

It has been a privilege to walk beside you for a short time, Lifewanderer. I hope to do so again soon.

May the Lord bless you and keep you;
May He make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you;
May He turn His face toward you and give you peace.

 

[Chaplain David]

God always hears our prayers and He always answers them in His time and in His way. He loves you as He does all His children. May we always praise Him and be grateful for the help and abundance he provides.

 

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[Chaplain David]

Dear God,

Please kill me now. Please!
I hurt people. I don't mean to. I never know what I'm doing most of the time. It's not an excuse. It's just a reason. It doesn't make it right. I tried to make it right today. I told Beth. I didn't know how to make it right.
I was scared. They all kept saying I was crazy. I just wanted to talk about you God. That's it. There's so much that confuses me. There's so much I don't understand.
God, please listen to me. Please!
I try so hard to get it right.
But I always get it wrong.
So I make it wrong. I make it wrong. Then they hate me and I can say "See, the world hates me."
God, I just don't know that I can trust this world. I'm so afraid. I'm so afraid of being hurt.
I put a brick wall between me and them. All the inside people I see here around me are also afraid. We are so torn apart. We are so afraid.
Dear God, please help me fit in. Please! Please help me understand their words. Please, please help me not be afraid. I don't want to hurt them. I don't want to hurt nice kind people.
I am so afraid God. I am so afraid.
I have parts inside who fight constantly. They are supposed to be a part of me. They are supposed to be all me.
Please, please God, please make them all be one person in me. Please make them understand the outside people. Please help me God. Please help me fix this. Please make them not mad at me. I know I lied. I'm so sorry. Please God, please believe me. I'm so sorry.
Please God. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to hurt. Please God, make the pain stop. Please help me be somebody else. Please God help me. Please God don't abandon me.
You're the only one left. There is no one else.

Except for the first words about God please kill me and saying you had no one else, that is an outstanding prayer Cindy. Keep praying and fellowshipping with other believers. God bless.

 

[Catherineanne]

Please God help me. Please God don't abandon me.
You're the only one left. There is no one else.

God will not abandon you. And neither will I.

Peace be with you, Lifewanderer.

 

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