i feel worthless

[evenangelsfall]

im never going to amount to anything i dont know why im at school whats the point i have no motivation to do anything im having one of those days when depression just takes your whole body over and u just dont want to do anything im so tired of being me i love my band but o i dont know plz help me i dont know how anyone wud help me i wish my couinceller came in more than once a week i feel im missing out

from a very sad person

 

[dbot]

Is there any way that you can get in touch with your counseler before your next appointment?

I've felt this way before man and I really feel for you. Unfortunately I am at a loss of encouragement and advice. Just remember that you are still young, with MANY years ahead of you. Believe me when I say that you are not worthless.

 

[restore]

U must have met some v sad or bad things in your life, so u were emotionally destroyed.......
I just realized recently about this, I used to blame myself for everything i thought everything was my faults. No, it is a lie.
I doubted why I was born on this earth cuz i was so unworthy I should not even be a human , but the lord grace telling me that I was here cuz God wanted and God wants me to be here for a plan and reason, it is for His ultimate glory.

U r a beloved daughter of God. No matter how bad u feel for yourself , or how bad others talk about u. The truth can not be changed. U r living in the God grace and His grace is sufficient and full of glory, girl.

Pray for deep healing and more supportive friends and counsel, pm me anytime

 

[Ramona]

im never going to amount to anything i dont know why im at school whats the point i have no motivation to do anything im having one of those days when depression just takes your whole body over and u just dont want to do anything im so tired of being me i love my band but o i dont know plz help me i dont know how anyone wud help me i wish my couinceller came in more than once a week i feel im missing out

from a very sad person

Hi there,

You're definitely not alone when you feel that way. I have days like that all the time - there's really not an easy day in my life. Realistically, you're not going to wake up perma-happy after a lifelong depression any more than you're going to run a marathon the day after a lung transplant. It takes time to work your way through it.

Six months ago I felt completely worthless. Now I know that I am not. One thing that has helped me tremendously - and I mentioned this in the Borderline Personality Disorder forum - is to make a list of all the good things about yourself (talents, skills, personality traits, and other nice qualities you see) when you're not on such a low. Make another list of the people who care about you. Keep these close by so that you can read them when you feel worthless.

I'd also recommend phoning your counselor and asking if you might meet twice, three times, four times, or even daily. You should definitely make your mental health a priority. And find a support system - family, friends, church - whom you feel like you can trust.

Feel free to PM me anytime.

~Hallie

 

[Pathfinder]

im never going to amount to anything i dont know why im at school whats the point i have no motivation to do anything im having one of those days when depression just takes your whole body over and u just dont want to do anything im so tired of being me i love my band but o i dont know plz help me i dont know how anyone wud help me i wish my couinceller came in more than once a week i feel im missing out

from a very sad person

I just came out of a depression of my own. For five years I was down in the dumps. Hardly anything would make me happy. I got into smoking pot, drinking, and some other things I rather not mention. I didn't feel worthless, but I sure felt stupid and lost. I think the only thing that did make me feel better was reading books. Philosophy was my favorite subject. This is how I got into the whole meaning of life thing. I tried to mind my purpose in life. My mind wandered all over the place trying to think of the ultimate purpose. For a while I just accepted that we all die at some time, and when we did then we'd just die, and that was the end of it. I was pessimistic, so that was the most optimistic conclusion I could come up with at the time. I cheered up a bit, and after some time I thought that our purpose was up to us. We could make our own purpose in life. What that was, I still didn't know. I found out that I was missing faith. Everyone said have faith in something, anything, but I found it in religion. Some other people said they have faith in reason and philosophy, but not for me.

When my mind was wondering, I had to do a lot of self-analysis. I really had to spend many hours thinking about who I was. Not at one time, but sometimes I'd zone out for twenty minutes and think about how my mind worked. I knew whatever happened, I was the one that had to make myself better. So, I just kept thinking and pondering.

I'm crawling out of my pit of depression and I'm so much happier now, though there are still loose ends I've got to tie up before I'm out of it. One thing that really helps me along is thinking about how much better life will be after I get rid of this stupid depression thing. I always refer to it as "stupid depression" so that way I keep it as an enemy and I'm always fighting it.

I think that if you're feeling worthless, then you havn't found your purpose in life. Maybe you should do some inner searching.

Remember. It is all up to you to sort things out.

 

[restore]

I just came out of a depression of my own. For five years I was down in the dumps. Hardly anything would make me happy... .

U post a good testimony , i m on the way of recovery too, but I still feel realy uneasy.....Can I ask if u have a happy childhood or not? I feel the childhood is really the roots of everything. Some deep fish-hook and trigger just so sticky ,twisted your deep core and hard to dig out.

 

[Pathfinder]

U post a good testimony , i m on the way of recovery too, but I still feel realy uneasy.....Can I ask if u have a happy childhood or not? I feel the childhood is really the roots of everything. Some deep fish-hook and trigger just so sticky ,twisted your deep core and hard to dig out.

I've always been a bit behind everyone else socially. Ever since kindergarten, I could never quite fit in with anybody. Traveling a lot didn't help that much. I was usually happier by myself.

 

[bereue]

Greetings,

sending you love, peace & hugsss today.

God b with u