i feel sick

[Wisher1]

I keep feeling like something huge is going to happen, and I cant stop it from coming.

I keep feeling like I understand god, and that makes me feel sick, cause no one can comprehend god right?

I want to be a good person, and not so sinful, but its hard.

I keep thinking about this girl thats in my class at school.

Im on my meds! Im taking 15mg of Zyprexa every night, and I am taking 20 mg of citalopram.

Im getting paranoid, and it feels like im the only one who notices.

Im addicted to THC, I cant find any way to relieve the inner pain i have.

Im going to try and pray..

I dont want to go back to the hospital again.....

Im praying every day.

I feel lost.

 

[getncloser]

((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))

 

[Jeshu]

I keep feeling like something huge is going to happen, and I cant stop it from coming.

I keep feeling like I understand god, and that makes me feel sick, cause no one can comprehend god right?

I want to be a good person, and not so sinful, but its hard.

I keep thinking about this girl thats in my class at school.

Im on my meds! Im taking 15mg of Zyprexa every night, and I am taking 20 mg of citalopram.

Im getting paranoid, and it feels like im the only one who notices.

Im addicted to THC, I cant find any way to relieve the inner pain i have.

Im going to try and pray..

I dont want to go back to the hospital again.....

Im praying every day.

I feel lost.

Hi friend.

It sure looks like you have troubles and it may well be that you are going to spend some time in hospital again. I'm sorry to have to remind you but the abuse of THC is not very helpful either, please try and cut down so your life will appear more balanced again.

Are you in contact with your doctor throughout all this? I went from psychosis to psychosis as well without finding much benefit from the medication I was on. In the end Abilify together with two mood stabilizers did the job for me, you may be in need for a medicine change as well.

I'm glad you are praying throughout all this for God will stay close to you even if you end up in hospital again. Please hold tightly to that truth. I know the pain is REAL and HARD and DEMANDING and OVERPOWERING but Christ will still use it for your good in the end.

I pray that God will grant you clear perspectives so you will stay in control.


Gerry

 

[soundsalive]

[FONT=&quot]Hey man...
I go through some of the same things you listed...but I did want to comment on something...
I really hope you have a change in heart about the herb...
I to felt the same way about it...
I was getting to the point where I'd come home on my lunch break and toke...but ultimately it didn't help matters...But I think you know that it's deceiving treatment if any at all...

I haven't smoked in 2.75 months...
God literally backed me up in a corner with the mere situation in my life at the time (I was stealing scrap metal out of buildings to buy my next bag...my brother got me to get so depressed and feel bad about myself at times...he would feed off emotions...it's nuts...really no rationale behind his thinking... - two main reason that lead me to quitting). I now have no desires to smoke again...of course I tease the notion here and there...But it's not the same...I have many reasons to stay clean now...
Trust in god...he WILL give you the same opportunity and or the strength to have a clear decision on it...

-soundsalive
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[njcl]

my bro is a nurse at a psychiatric hospital,most of the young patients are there because of cannabis misuse which can cause schizophrenia or paranioa or a worsening of the condition

 

[Cloudz]

I wonder about the use of weed also. My sister was a daily user for about 8 years.

 

[Lisa0315]

I keep feeling like something huge is going to happen, and I cant stop it from coming.

I keep feeling like I understand god, and that makes me feel sick, cause no one can comprehend god right?

I want to be a good person, and not so sinful, but its hard.

I keep thinking about this girl thats in my class at school.

Im on my meds! Im taking 15mg of Zyprexa every night, and I am taking 20 mg of citalopram.

Im getting paranoid, and it feels like im the only one who notices.

Im addicted to THC, I cant find any way to relieve the inner pain i have.

Im going to try and pray..

I dont want to go back to the hospital again.....

Im praying every day.

I feel lost.

You need to tell your doctor. Your fears of being hospitalized again are probably just that, fears. They probably need to adjust your meds, okay? Call your doctor before this gets worse! You cannot serve God unless you take care of yourself, okay?

Lisa

 

[kahuta]

Why do you feel paranoid, are you hearing voices or seeing things?

Cheers,
DD

 

[rubixcube]

You probably don't want to hear this again, but the pot has gotta be stopped, or at least cut back. Chances are you are self-medicating yourself with it. Try this: Keep track of how much you smoke each day. Then, for the next day, smoke a little bit less. Put aside the day's amount at the start of the day so you can pace yourself. And don't just make it less by .1 grams, make it noticeable less. Also, don't let yourself be like "well today is different because...... so I get to smoke more", or at least try to limit that as much as possible.

I know the hospital visits suck, especially when they last a while and you don't think they're helping, but think about how much better you feel when you get out compared to how you felt going in. I would guess that you are hiding some things from the doctors when they let you out, just so you can get out. This is not a good idea because it just increases your chance of coming back in.

God Bless!