I feel weird in today's church. While I get that there's this thing called grace for all sinners; I also sense that worldly culture is infecting our church culture. The reason I say this is the number of divorces within the church, and very few of them have to do with abuse or infidelity; usually the reason cited is financial. On the one hand, because I see so much divorce, and that in general the court will side with the females on their desire to divorce; which leaves me cautious to even pursue a woman, because I'm apt to believe it just won't work no matter how good of a husband or father I could be. On the other hand, I hear woman screaming how they can't find a good man in church, but when they said good man, they mean a myriad of different things, and it usually includes well off financially (which really isn't biblical; finances in and of themselves aren't biblical, only how we steward them). I bust my butt and work hard to a mundane lifestyle that is not appealing to women, nor can I find a better job in order to support a godly woman. I find myself clawing and scratching for a solitary life that seems meaningless. Not only this, but I grew up in pretty rich household; my father made six figures, and our house was destroyed twice by natural disasters; so I cannot for the life of me fathom why so much stress is placed on finances of the home when God just decides to take it away whenever through no fault of my own. I would desire a wife who would stick with me through thick and thin no matter what, no matter what happens (Obviously I would not include infidelity in this; however I never have cheated on any past girlfriends nor do I have any desire to do so in the future, and believe me, there have been opportunities to).
I feel very out of place in a church culture of divorce and remarrying, which from what I can see, is explicitly against what the Bible teaches, both in divorce and in the marrying of a divorced a person.