<---- Hi all, I'm new here **waves** This is one topic that I have been struggling with for the past month, i've been praying, and seeking clear answers to my questions from my Heavenly Father. I am divorced, my ex cheated multiple times (but I forgave and prayed and tried to keep the marriage together) it was 18 yrs of ups and downs, domestic violence, verbal abuse, sexual abuse, you name it. He snapped one day, threatening suicide and threatening to harm me, he ended up in jail and I filed for a restraining order, I feared for myself and my 5 children at that point. The courts ordered that he seek help, he did what they required but when it was all said and done, he backed out, stole money from me and the children and left the state, at that point it seemed clear he wasn't serious about help and healing, my divorce was 2 years ago. I have been in a relationship with someone else for the past year, he is a believer, when I met him, he mentioned that he believed in the false doctrine of "plural marriage" I guess that was a red flag for me, but he assured me that it was not for him, about 6 months into our relationship, i felt he was distancing himself in a way, I didn't feel good about it at all. I prayed about it and one night I had a dream he was talking to someone else, I told him about the dream, he assured me it was from the enemy, and he wasn't doing anything wrong. I felt ok with that for a little while, but that gut feeling came creeping in again, so I confronted him, and tried to get him to let me see his phone, which he tried hard to not let me, after going back and forth for a bit, he admitted he was talking to someone else, it all turned out that he concluded, he was tempted by the whole "plural marriage" doctrine, but at the same time he still insisted it was true. After a couple months of praying that Yah (God) show him the truth about it, he agreed to study it further and we did this together to which he finally came to the understanding that it was wrong, and that he saw first hand the pain it caused, he repented of it. Since then we decided to study marriage on a deeper level, there is more to it than we comprehend, its a covenant, it represents our relationship with our heavenly Father and our Messiah, its sacred, its serious, this deeper study has lead me to some (what I think might me) conviction, I don't want to be guilty of adultery. (if I re-marry) the man I am in this relationship with is divorced as well, he claimed his ex cheated on him by lusting after someone else, but she didn't physically do anything, aparently she was always blaming him of cheating and by doing that she pushed him to the point of actually physically commiting adultery with a single woman.I feel like I am in one big mess... wheres the honesty? trust? before I met him, i came away from a couple bad relationships I should not have been in, I repented and told my Abba I didn't know if I could ever trust a man again, and He told me to trust in HIM, I am praying for an answer, I am praying that He open my eyes to the truth in His word, and I pray that He lead my path, I want to be pleasing to Him, and if it means that my children and I live without a man, than so be it. But at the same time, I love this man I am with right now very very much, and I desire him to be the one my Heavenly Father wants me to be with, I need to be still and listen..... 
