I feel like I want to disappear~~I am so sad

[Butterfly2005]

I know i know here is another sob sad pity party story but here goes. I am really having a hard time with life at the moment. I do not like feeeling this way. I feel like I want to just disappear and at times I wish God would just take me on the Heaven. Sucide is a thought that I have had but no one really knows if it is a sin and I do not want to risk it. I am miserable enough here in this life that I look so forward to Heaven. Please pray. The depression is worsening. I am already on anti -depressants and anxiety meds. I need prayer. I don't really want to die but I really don't feel like living at the moment either. I have so much frustration and anxiousness I feel like I may explode. I also feel that I am angry with God. I love the Lord but I do not understand the way my life is at the moment. Please Lord forgive me Lord. I know trials make us stronger but it still hurst. My marriage is, I feel, beyond repair. Please pray ernestly for my family and I. I feel like there is just too much on my plate and I need a big extra helping of God's strength.
Butterfly2005

 

[NewSong]

I know i know here is another sob sad pity party story but here goes. I am really having a hard time with life at the moment. I do not like feeeling this way. I feel like I want to just disappear and at times I wish God would just take me on the Heaven. Sucide is a thought that I have had but no one really knows if it is a sin and I do not want to risk it. I am miserable enough here in this life that I look so forward to Heaven. Please pray. The depression is worsening. I am already on anti -depressants and anxiety meds. I need prayer. I don't really want to die but I really don't feel like living at the moment either. I have so much frustration and anxiousness I feel like I may explode. I also feel that I am angry with God. I love the Lord but I do not understand the way my life is at the moment. Please Lord forgive me Lord. I know trials make us stronger but it still hurst. My marriage is, I feel, beyond repair. Please pray ernestly for my family and I. I feel like there is just too much on my plate and I need a big extra helping of God's strength.
Butterfly2005

There are some threads below that you will see posted by cygnusx and missionary1 that have some wonderful help in them for depression that was posted by various folk including myself. I just want you to know that I am praying for you and with you but start talking to God and telling HIM these same things, read your BIBLE, sing HIS praises, right down the things that are going right and I will continue to pray with you and the others that pray over these needs.

Muffy

 

[goldenviolet]

your feelings are not another sob story ... God bless you!! i have felt this broken. fortunate for me, this is how God pealled away all my sicknesses, bad, memories, bad habits, and began to build me up with a brand new life. i now understand that i was finally in the spot to see where i was doing the wrong things... and just how important God's will was for my life.

don't throw in your towel on life. throw your towel over to Jesus. ask and you will recieve. if we ask for God's will, it will be given to us. God sees you as a beauiful creation. He wants to build you up!

dear sister God bless you, and build you anew!

 

[pumanator]

The Psalms are a wonderful place to go when you're down and struggling. David fought depression as did many no doubt in the Bible. Elisha or Elija (help me with the spelling here gang and which one went up against Queen Jezabel) ran to the wilderness after a huge victory because the queen threatened him and he lost the will to live, but God meet him there. Case you care on me and take up my yoke for it is light, said Jesus. He understands, the garden before he was arrested must have been an unbelievable anguish for Him. Many ppl here love and care about you and those who struggle with depression...because we can relate and have and do struggle ourselves.

Check out the marriage forum also at this weg site...read the other post in the depression forums also...best of all, find someone worse off and try to encourage them, maybe even pray for them...see if God won't give you a special blessing.

Keep your eyes on Him and try to have a Merry Christmas

 

[mikeforjesus]

Elijah

 

[blessedmomof5]

Praying for you, are there still there and BTW tried to disappear, does not work..... you will be in my thoughts if you every need to talk, i am just a pm away....
Denise

 

[pockleberry]

I know i know here is another sob sad pity party story but here goes. I am really having a hard time with life at the moment. I do not like feeeling this way. I feel like I want to just disappear and at times I wish God would just take me on the Heaven. Sucide is a thought that I have had but no one really knows if it is a sin and I do not want to risk it. I am miserable enough here in this life that I look so forward to Heaven. Please pray. The depression is worsening. I am already on anti -depressants and anxiety meds. I need prayer. I don't really want to die but I really don't feel like living at the moment either. I have so much frustration and anxiousness I feel like I may explode.

When I read this it linked so much with how I often feel there isn't much I can do but I wanted to say that I understand some of what you're going through and I really care.

I know trials make us stronger but it still hurst. My marriage is, I feel, beyond repair. Please pray ernestly for my family and I. I feel like there is just too much on my plate and I need a big extra helping of God's strength.
Butterfly2005

I can relate to that feeling of going through things and wishing we didn't have to but that it will make us stronger really is true I used to think it was something that ppl would just say to you in a feeble atemt to make you feel better but I know from experience that it is actually true. I will be praying please pm me if there is anything else I can do

 

[Evie]

I know i know here is another sob sad pity party story but here goes. I am really having a hard time with life at the moment. I do not like feeeling this way. I feel like I want to just disappear and at times I wish God would just take me on the Heaven. Sucide is a thought that I have had but no one really knows if it is a sin and I do not want to risk it. I am miserable enough here in this life that I look so forward to Heaven. Please pray. The depression is worsening. I am already on anti -depressants and anxiety meds. I need prayer. I don't really want to die but I really don't feel like living at the moment either. I have so much frustration and anxiousness I feel like I may explode. I also feel that I am angry with God. I love the Lord but I do not understand the way my life is at the moment. Please Lord forgive me Lord. I know trials make us stronger but it still hurst. My marriage is, I feel, beyond repair. Please pray ernestly for my family and I. I feel like there is just too much on my plate and I need a big extra helping of God's strength.
Butterfly2005

dear Butterfly2005
I am going through really hard times with my marriage also,I am at my wits end with life and my faith. I understand. I am really depressed myself. Praying that we make it through the Christmas season.

 

[BOJAX]

I know i know here is another sob sad pity party story but here goes. I am really having a hard time with life at the moment. I do not like feeeling this way. I feel like I want to just disappear and at times I wish God would just take me on the Heaven. Sucide is a thought that I have had but no one really knows if it is a sin and I do not want to risk it. I am miserable enough here in this life that I look so forward to Heaven. Please pray. The depression is worsening. I am already on anti -depressants and anxiety meds. I need prayer. I don't really want to die but I really don't feel like living at the moment either. I have so much frustration and anxiousness I feel like I may explode. I also feel that I am angry with God. I love the Lord but I do not understand the way my life is at the moment. Please Lord forgive me Lord. I know trials make us stronger but it still hurst. My marriage is, I feel, beyond repair. Please pray ernestly for my family and I. I feel like there is just too much on my plate and I need a big extra helping of God's strength.
Butterfly2005

You needn't feel sorry for yourself. Call on help whenever you need it!

Depression really is only a series of negative thoughts. What is it that you are anxious over? What do you worrry about what are you afreaid of. Worrying is giving into and having faith in fear. Not believing in Gods promises and not trusting him. You don't have to worry if you don't want to. (Matthew 6:27) (Matthew 6:34)
I don't want to seem like a hypocrite but I was where you are just 3 weeks ago. I understand depression but you can get over it. Just delight yourself in the Lord. trust him and his promises. He is just working right now in your life. Don't think he doesn't hear your prayers. He hears them. He's just waiting on you to trust him and to accept him. he wants you to believe that he can heal you.

Cast your burdens onto the Lord. What helps me is writing all my worries. Every negative though that goes through my mind. Then praying to God and commending all my problems into his hands. then I get rid of what I've written.

(Philippians 4:8)
Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.

God bless

 

[Mary_Magdalene]

Open His word and read. Thats what I do when I am struggling.

 

[Mayflower1]

I know i know here is another sob sad pity party story but here goes. I am really having a hard time with life at the moment. I do not like feeeling this way. I feel like I want to just disappear and at times I wish God would just take me on the Heaven. Sucide is a thought that I have had but no one really knows if it is a sin and I do not want to risk it. I am miserable enough here in this life that I look so forward to Heaven. Please pray. The depression is worsening. I am already on anti -depressants and anxiety meds. I need prayer. I don't really want to die but I really don't feel like living at the moment either. I have so much frustration and anxiousness I feel like I may explode. I also feel that I am angry with God. I love the Lord but I do not understand the way my life is at the moment. Please Lord forgive me Lord. I know trials make us stronger but it still hurst. My marriage is, I feel, beyond repair. Please pray ernestly for my family and I. I feel like there is just too much on my plate and I need a big extra helping of God's strength.
Butterfly2005

Best Wishes to you my friend. I will pray for you. I hope you will feel better soon. Lily00

 

[Butterfly2005]

Thank you all. I know God is in control and I will get through.

 

[Nathan55]

Hang in there Butterfly. Think about it, when you over come these hard times you may be able to help others with the same problem! You can take a certain time of your life that seems bad and use it for good to help your fellow people

PM me if you need to talk
Nathan55

 

[Harrythepizzaguy]

Sounds like you might need to be in a hospital? If you have insurance, I would suggest you check in...even if you don't, be honest about your thoughts and feelings and they may admit you. If you can't go to a hospital, be sure you have the number of the crisis line--they are there to help if things get worse. You really have to get tough with yourself when you think about taking matters into your own hands-- this is a grievous sin from which God might not be able to rescue you...don't gamble with your soul. "The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom" This is what has kept me alive through 25+ years of depression. Take a walk in a cemetery and remind yourself that within you you have the power with God's help to stay on top of the ground and walk in a field of flowers and watch the sunrise or sunset and come to know God in a way that those who have not suffered in this way may never get a chance to experience. You are blessed to have a rare gift of touching the Cross of Christ--thank God for it every day inspite of the misery... There are worse things than depression and I have experienced some of them--thank God that these have not happened to you and pray that they don't... Demons feed on hopelessness and despair--despair was the grievous sin of Judas...beware of this deadly sin--don't let it creep into your mind. A Franciscan priest told me once, "it's one thing to doubt something and quite another to believe a lie." Often faith requires us to believe in what we can not see or feel... At my weakest moment God sent a suffering friend to say these words: "Please believe Me..." You are blessed... fight back--get angry... go visit someone who is worse off... anyway... things WILL get better, but all you need to worry about is surviving one day at a time-- Hope this has helped...
Harold

 

[justafayes]

I know i know here is another sob sad pity party story but here goes. I am really having a hard time with life at the moment. I do not like feeeling this way. I feel like I want to just disappear and at times I wish God would just take me on the Heaven. Sucide is a thought that I have had but no one really knows if it is a sin and I do not want to risk it. I am miserable enough here in this life that I look so forward to Heaven. Please pray. The depression is worsening. I am already on anti -depressants and anxiety meds. I need prayer. I don't really want to die but I really don't feel like living at the moment either. I have so much frustration and anxiousness I feel like I may explode. I also feel that I am angry with God. I love the Lord but I do not understand the way my life is at the moment. Please Lord forgive me Lord. I know trials make us stronger but it still hurst. My marriage is, I feel, beyond repair. Please pray ernestly for my family and I. I feel like there is just too much on my plate and I need a big extra helping of God's strength.
Butterfly2005

Bless your heart lil sis.. I know where you're coming from, been there done that! PM me if you ever need to empty out or just chat,, Love in the Lord, Faye

Dear Lord, thank you for waking us up this morning,, giving us air to breathe and another day to bless your name.

I pray for encouragement for my sister,, lift her up,, bind up the broken heart and set her free from this bondage. Give her ears to hear, eyes to see and a heart to believe. Hold her in your arms and protect her as your words says the mother hen protects her chicks under her wings... let her feel your presence and speak to her through your word. Comfort her and give her a light spirit. A song on her heart and a praise on her lips.. replace the darkness with your glorious light. Use her when all is said and done to encourage others,, we thank and praise you for it, In Jesus Name,, Amen..

 

[Dicy mind]

Hi,
I'm praying for you that God would send Holy spirit to confort you. Take it day by day and but all your trust in Lord Jesus, those are my words of advice in hope that they would help some. Even the God's annointed kings have felt down but God will always take care of us.

God bless you.

 

[David68]

I know i know here is another sob sad pity party story but here goes. I am really having a hard time with life at the moment. I do not like feeeling this way. I feel like I want to just disappear and at times I wish God would just take me on the Heaven. Sucide is a thought that I have had but no one really knows if it is a sin and I do not want to risk it. I am miserable enough here in this life that I look so forward to Heaven. Please pray. The depression is worsening. I am already on anti -depressants and anxiety meds. I need prayer. I don't really want to die but I really don't feel like living at the moment either. I have so much frustration and anxiousness I feel like I may explode. I also feel that I am angry with God. I love the Lord but I do not understand the way my life is at the moment. Please Lord forgive me Lord. I know trials make us stronger but it still hurst. My marriage is, I feel, beyond repair. Please pray ernestly for my family and I. I feel like there is just too much on my plate and I need a big extra helping of God's strength.
Butterfly2005

When troubles start to weigh you down,
and hope it seems is nowhere near.
There I AM right next to you
holding your hand and catching your tears.

I see your hurt and feel your pain.
My Son I gave for all that day
to heal those wounds which seek to stain
the hearts of My children who've lost their way.

You're not alone Butterfly, just look around.
Brothers and sisters here they abound
to lift you up when spirit is weak,
hand in hand you'll reach that peak.

Child of Mine do not fear
for I AM with you, always near.
Place your faith and trust in Me.
Victory is yours, wait and see.

 

[Desert_pea]

David that poem is lovely...

Butterfly you will be in my prayers.

 

[appointed]

I know I have felt the same way, I will pray for you.

 

[pixieprincess]

i will pray for you.
God bless you ever so much!!!