Hello. When I was much younger I made jokes about selling my soul to be the best guitar player in the world. God has forgiven me I am sure of it and I do not even think its possible to sell a soul for anything anyways. But now I feel like I do not deserve to play anymore and I feel guilty whenever I play. I definitely always played for myself but now even though I play for god music written by Christians for Christians example im learning jesus/jesu joy of man's desiring it was written by Bach a Christian for lent. Im not sure if im just overthinking this or if god actually does not want me to play anymore.
Beloved one,
Are you looking for what is the acceptable will of God ?
This is what we have heard:
“For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light
(for the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness, righteousness, and truth),
finding out what is ACCEPTABLE to the Lord.
And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather expose them.”
Ephesians 5:8-11 NKJV
For we who were once darkness, but now we are light in the Lord. And walk as children of light, that we have found out what is acceptable to the Lord, to bear fruit of the Spirit, for the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness, righteousness, and truth. And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather expose them. For that we have fellowship with the fruitful works of light, that cover us.
beloved one, so consider what you have done, what you are doing, and will be doing—will it bear the fruit of the Spirit, that is in all goodness, righteousness and truth?
Then you will know what is acceptable to the Lord.
To God the Father be glory and thanksgiving through Christ. Amen