I've definitely had my ups and down with God. I don't have that perfect relationship with him as most people. I was so thankful that God has stayed with me even after I have dis-obeyed him time again. I told God that I would stay faithful no matter what. I guess he wanted to test this so he struck down anxiety and depression upon me. It's probably one of the worst times of my life. I have stayed faithful and asked God to please help me. I don't get that warm fuzzy feeling anymore like I used to with him. I don't feel like I used to. I'm just so confused. I chose to be Christian, so I was never raised on the Christian ways. Any thoughts?