I feel ashamed for having disabilities

[Ponkine]

I have an intellectual disability, I also have schizophrenia. Because of this I have been humiliated by people all my life, and I’m not able to work in any job I want to do because my disabilities hold me back. I’m currently on the Disability support pension, I feel ashamed of this because I’d much rather be working in a job I want to do. But at the same time I don’t want a career in some sheltered workshop or cleaning or collecting trolleys which is what my employment agency is trying to get me to do-- I’d rather be dead than do this.

 

[Ponkine]

I feel really stuck in life, it’s not like the lord can use me for anything. I recently had a full psychological assessment done and it revealed I have no strengths in anything, but well below average in information processing. I also have poor communication skills. My specialists said I will be on Disability support Pension for life. I wish I didn’t have to have such a low social economic status…how humiliating. I also wouldn’t have any dignity picking up rubbish in parks as my agency is trying to get me to do. I sometimes feel like I want to end my life, but I think Jesus would be understanding because I have no purpose in life.

 

[isleof]

The world hates everybody.

God is all truth and understanding of life without pain. Hope and peace and patience.

If you find one attempting to harm you against God, God has already defeated them.

 

[isleof]

You get a pension and get to sleep as long as you like? Some people would run for that escape. Instead, they are busy, getting up when the alarm rings and racing to a place that treats them like slaves. Meanwhile, gathering cash they cant find enough time to enjoy.

My advice, be content and relax, God is in control brother. May God have mercy enough to defeat what is causing you pain.

 

[toLiJC]

I have an intellectual disability, I also have schizophrenia. Because of this I have been humiliated by people all my life, and I’m not able to work in any job I want to do because my disabilities hold me back. I’m currently on the Disability support pension, I feel ashamed of this because I’d much rather be working in a job I want to do. But at the same time I don’t want a career in some sheltered workshop or cleaning or collecting trolleys which is what my employment agency is trying to get me to do-- I’d rather be dead than do this.

it is quite possible to turn out that there is a foul spirit that causes the symptoms of your (mental) inhibition and illness, in that case the evil spirit has to be cast out by prayer to God and Jesus

Blessings

 

[Ponkine]

You get a pension and get to sleep as long as you like? Some people would run for that escape. Instead, they are busy, getting up when the alarm rings and racing to a place that treats them like slaves. Meanwhile, gathering cash they cant find enough time to enjoy.

My advice, be content and relax, God is in control brother. May God have mercy enough to defeat what is causing you pain.

Thanks. I was working more than full-time until in a casual position until a couple of weeks ago. My employer decided not to hire me anymore as I wasn't able to to complete the tasks required as I kept on making mistakes. This has happened in almost every job I have had. I have tried my best to stay in meaningful employment but end up getting exploited, fired or severely bullied for my disabilities. I'm at a loss at what I should do?

 

[Ponkine]

it is quite possible to turn out that there is a foul spirit that causes the symptoms of your (mental) inhibition and illness, in that case the evil spirit has to be cast out by prayer to God and Jesus

Blessings

That's what I believed initially, but my specialists are all saying it is my brain.

 

[toLiJC]

there is no good thing which is impossible for God and Jesus, hold on to this in your faith and it will be sure that you will sooner or later receive a solution for your problem at least by prayer to Them, i also had such a problem before years, i was not able to communicate with people due to something in my brain, but God and Jesus after solved the problem

Blessings

 

[Ponkine]

toLiJC Thank you for the prayer you sent me. I'm praying it now. I tried to PM you but not enough post count. I have no doubt Jesus Christ is real, I used to be an athiest until I said the sinners prayer. Even tho I feel embarrassed about my disabilities I do not blame God.

 

[joey_downunder]

I have an intellectual disability, I also have schizophrenia. Because of this I have been humiliated by people all my life, and I’m not able to work in any job I want to do because my disabilities hold me back. I’m currently on the Disability support pension, I feel ashamed of this because I’d much rather be working in a job I want to do. But at the same time I don’t want a career in some sheltered workshop or cleaning or collecting trolleys which is what my employment agency is trying to get me to do-- I’d rather be dead than do this.

Hi there, I am also someone who is unable to work due to some memory problems/ difficulty with too much stress due to my own health issues. When I compared myself with my successful sisters (very good jobs) it was making me very depressed but then I had to decide to accept that was not God's will for me. He has provided what I need e.g. my husband has a stable job instead. Maybe nothing flash compared to one of my sister's but he provides what our family needs.

Re the sheltered workshop - there is nothing at all wrong with being in that type of workplace. Years ago when I did my nursing training I saw that the work given to disabled people was adjusted according to each person's level of skill or mental ability. I am sure that the supervisors would give you enough challenge to make it more rewarding for you.

Proverbs 16:8 Better is a little with righteousness,
Than vast revenues without justice.

9 A man’s heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps.

Perhaps you could be of great help to other people in that workshop more than you realise?

P.S. I remembered how lovely some of the intellectually disabled people were in the nursing home that I worked in. Extremely loving and accepting towards people they were in frequent contact with. I think you need that acceptance and friendship more than a "successful in the eyes of the world" workplace.

 

[Ponkine]

Joey Downunder It is nice to know you can relate to me, it is mostly strong feelings of inadequacy I feel when I compare myself to everyone else as you picked up on. I guess I’d rather have acceptance and friendship working in one of these workshops if the work is adjusted to my skill level. It would be better than being bored at home or getting harassed fired in open employment . You’ve opened me up to it now. I’ll speak to my disability agency with my next appointment about it, but they can forget about the idea of the other jobs they mentioned. Thank you for your post.

 

[sunshineforJesus]

I have learning disabilities and for years was actually mad at God for making me that way,but he has used me so much despite them.

 

[unclean]

Ponkine, My prayers go out for you. The Lord isn't looking for or expecting perfection he is looking for people that are willing. Willing to be what he wants them to be, just as they are. I know it's difficult to not allow our situations to hinder us, and satan will use anything he can to discourage us. Remember what the Lord told Paul in 2 Corinthians 12:9 "My strength is made perfect in weakness" I'm so glad you have found the Lord as your savior. You are a child of the Lord, and in that you are PERFECT. Don't you fret for what man may say, the Lord has said you are HIS and he loves you just as you are.

 

[sunshineforJesus]

Ponkine, My prayers go out for you. The Lord isn't looking for or expecting perfection he is looking for people that are willing. Willing to be what he wants them to be, just as they are. I know it's difficult to not allow our situations to hinder us, and satan will use anything he can to discourage us. Remember what the Lord told Paul in 2 Corinthians 12:9 "My strength is made perfect in weakness" I'm so glad you have found the Lord as your savior. You are a child of the Lord, and in that you are PERFECT. Don't you fret for what man may say, the Lord has said you are HIS and he loves you just as you are.

I know this was written to someone else but it truly encouraged me as well.