I dunno if I'll ever get over her..

[HotRhymez]

Hi..I never post in this section but I'm really struggling tonight...*caution venting ahead*

I dunno if I'll ever get over past friendships I lost..especially one...I tried and tried to earn their trust back but nothing I did worked..they never loved me and they always kept me at a distance..I tried to obey their boundaries or whatever but nothing was good enough! I dunno if I'll ever be happy without them..I used to be best friends with them and yeah I did make a few mistakes but WHY CANT THEY JUST FORGIVE AND GET OVER IT...

and it doesnt help that theyre on the other side of the flippin planet..im not a jerk im a very nice honest person..I want to send them an email and apologize for everything but I know she wont read it or believe me or trust me..I'll never be her best friend again and she'll never trust me like she trusts other people so whats the point..but I really miss her...UGH!! I dont want to be enemies anymore..why does it have to be this way..why cant we just get along..

This is it..this is the end of the line..I dunno if I'll ever be happy without her but I guess I'll have to find a way. Ugh I just want to punch something right now. Sorry I'm a little mad. ANyway you can pray for me if you want...sorry I just needed to vent.

 

[.Mikha'el.]

Hi..I never post in this section but I'm really struggling tonight...*caution venting ahead*

I dunno if I'll ever get over past friendships I lost..especially one...I tried and tried to earn their trust back but nothing I did worked..they never loved me and they always kept me at a distance..I tried to obey their boundaries or whatever but nothing was good enough! I dunno if I'll ever be happy without them..I used to be best friends with them and yeah I did make a few mistakes but WHY CANT THEY JUST FORGIVE AND GET OVER IT...

and it doesnt help that theyre on the other side of the flippin planet..im not a jerk im a very nice honest person..I want to send them an email and apologize for everything but I know she wont read it or believe me or trust me..I'll never be her best friend again and she'll never trust me like she trusts other people so whats the point..but I really miss her...UGH!! I dont want to be enemies anymore..why does it have to be this way..why cant we just get along..

This is it..this is the end of the line..I dunno if I'll ever be happy without her but I guess I'll have to find a way. Ugh I just want to punch something right now. Sorry I'm a little mad. ANyway you can pray for me if you want...sorry I just needed to vent.

Really sorry to hear that. I was there. The friendships with women that we have can sometimes mean infintely more than romance ever could. Three years I lamented the end of a friendship with a woman at CF. Finally, God changed my heart about her. I started to realize just whom she was, not someone who really deserved te energy I was spending on her. I pray that with time, He can do the same for you too., and that He bring someone far better into your life who deserves your time. I will be praying for you.