Thank you Woven and Ruth for writing. I just want to know that it's ok that I don't have a boyfriend or a significant other in my life. My life seems like a disaster. I went up for prayer today in church and I broke down crying. Some of the women comforted me and prayed for me but I fear that I'll relapse again into my depressed state and give up on hope for my life. I just feel empty, like there are so many missing pieces to my soul like love and a father. I'm afraid of the future and i wonder if my life will be worse than it is today. I wonder if I pray and seek after God will he even be there to help me? Will I have a purposeful life? Will I find what my career path and purpose is? Will I ever be married and have a family of my own? It seems that all I have going for myself is school and I even struggle with that.
Everyone sees me as someone that's focused on my education but they don't know I'm a weary broken person just getting by in life. I'm not living life I'm barely making it because every day is a battle to find hope and strength. I haven't relied on God instead I found ways to not think about my problems but i later face them with even more hurt.
I guess I'm just hoping that things will really change for me. Praying and waiting on God seems so hard
how am I suppose to get through each hour that passes? All I have are reminders of the emptiness in my life. Every time I hear about someone getting married or see a father with his child, or hear about someone mentioning what God has done for them I feel abandoned and empty. I don't have any of those things. I'm sorry for whining but it hurts so much.
there are so many things wrong with me. how can i even begin to pray for each of them? what if i leave something out? what if God doesnt see those areas of my life as a big deal?
Dont let the losers around you control your actions. Being successful is a continuous journey. Dont get tied to your place, keep moving. Allow them to fill up and follow.
You are the leader.
http://www.myjobthoughts.com/management-tips-from-james-bond-007/
You have to realize that
you control your actions and attitude not anyone else. You can be influenced to do certain things, but you have the final decision on what you actually do.
"TOP 1% BOTTOM LINE: The good news is that you control your actions, which means that your results are dependent on what you do on a consistent
or inconsistent basis. Many people want success overnight (this would be a good time to identify what that means to you), but success is a process that is created by the actions and ownership we take over time. Be honest, will your actions lead to the results you want? There is still plenty of time to assess where you are in different areas of your life and decide what shifts, if any, need to take place to get the results you desire.
Life is a series of choices.
Each day you must decide how to invest your precious time and energy.
Will you step up and be the CEO of your life, or franchise out different areas and let others make key decisions for you? If you want a specific set of results, you must take an active role in your life and be proactive. If changing jobs is a core priority, then what steps are you taking on a daily basis to own the situation and create a new path?
Have you ever had an important project or goal not turn out as well as you had hoped? Dont worry, we all have! Its time to reverse this trend by re-evaluating the actions we are taking in our lives to see if they are setting us up for success."
Position Yourself for Success « Positively Positive
This is a great website above!
"Each week, I pick a new belief I want to havefor example, were lucky or life is good. And I think on it throughout the day. I bring it up in conversation and generally emanate it. Part of my little game is to see if my new idea comes back to me. So far, I have had surprising success. People notice my new attitude and feed it back to me, even my kids. The culture I want in my home is one of invention."
Get Your Hopes Up « Positively Positive
Here's example of someone with a very positive attitude: Nick Vujicic, he is an Australian and was born without any limbs or legs. His attitude makes him a great motivational speaker. His optimistic attitude and beliefs makes him successful and inspirational!
Nick Vujicic - DVD Part 1/11 - YouTube
Here is Kevin Carroll and his presentation "little red ball/catalyst"
I saw his presentation at the National Society of Leadership and Success, where I was the secretary at for a year. This is not his exact presentation, but it is inspirational because he had no parents (left at a young age) and used a red ball to inspire him to dream big. He then worked at Nike (despite all odds!) and helped people in Uganda, as well as be a great motivational speaker nationwide. Have you thought of joining a student organization at your college? Taking a leadership position? It is inspiring and a great way to practice/learn leadership and help others, too. Volunteering and seeing others thank you is SO satisfying and gratifying. I had never taken a leadership position before, so it was a risk, but I jumped in and took it.
TEDxVancouver - Kevin Carroll - 11/21/09 - YouTube
Motivational speakers are GREAT to listen to. There are plenty of them online on youtube, e.g.
(If it makes you feel any better, I never really "had" a dad except for Jesus, of course. It's no big deal, it makes me stronger and I'm actually glad I didn't because it makes me more independent and self-assured. It means I did everything by myself without any help. That makes me feel satisfied. I take it in stride. "I" did it!)
I'm guessing your history is really good, as I wrote before, I can just tell. Your words doctor, graduate school (not everyone even thinks about this!), education, being something, doing more, making a difference, you have a
lot going for you. You have that drive that so many people want to have. There's ambition there, you just need to harness it like a catalyst and take off! FLY LIKE AN EAGLE!