It seems to keep happening to me - one month there will be something, and I'll be extremely happy for that month, then something bad happens and that ends, and I'm left almost alone for months on end. Case and point, I had a girlfriend dump me just this Monday.. for two months it was wonderful, we could talk about everything.
Then, with absolutely no warning, (and on a week where her mom wasn't letting her out of the house to see me to fix anything either..) she came over and told me she for some reason, could suddenly only see me as a friend... and it was weird, she was saying she was sorry, and didn't seem to be sure that it was what she wanted. We spent the last half of the visit in a hug, and she kissed me on the cheek before she left, saying she still wanted to hang out, have me over for dinner etc... then after a few days of continued talking she started to ignore me.. my biggest worry here is not that I'll lose her overall, but rather that she'll start seeing this guy she liked before we went out, and who liked her while we were going out - to recap, I have known him since I was 3, we were best friends until last year, where he started becoming extremely elitist, and he always had a "im better than you" attitude, cheated on his girlfriend thrice (once with a guy..), kicked me out/convinced an entire group of friends I was a bad person.. etc etc.. you get where I'm going with this? She'll get hurt, considering my past experience with him, I'll feel betrayed (I already do.. they've been hanging out and talking alot, even while we were going out..)
Bah.. I don't even know where I'm going with this to be honest... I guess most of all I feel betrayed in this.. like he came back into my life after ruining it once, and is stealing my happiness away a second time...
...I feel sick.. Whenever I'm really depressed about something I won't be able to hold any food without throwing up almost immediately..
Then, with absolutely no warning, (and on a week where her mom wasn't letting her out of the house to see me to fix anything either..) she came over and told me she for some reason, could suddenly only see me as a friend... and it was weird, she was saying she was sorry, and didn't seem to be sure that it was what she wanted. We spent the last half of the visit in a hug, and she kissed me on the cheek before she left, saying she still wanted to hang out, have me over for dinner etc... then after a few days of continued talking she started to ignore me.. my biggest worry here is not that I'll lose her overall, but rather that she'll start seeing this guy she liked before we went out, and who liked her while we were going out - to recap, I have known him since I was 3, we were best friends until last year, where he started becoming extremely elitist, and he always had a "im better than you" attitude, cheated on his girlfriend thrice (once with a guy..), kicked me out/convinced an entire group of friends I was a bad person.. etc etc.. you get where I'm going with this? She'll get hurt, considering my past experience with him, I'll feel betrayed (I already do.. they've been hanging out and talking alot, even while we were going out..)
Bah.. I don't even know where I'm going with this to be honest... I guess most of all I feel betrayed in this.. like he came back into my life after ruining it once, and is stealing my happiness away a second time...
...I feel sick.. Whenever I'm really depressed about something I won't be able to hold any food without throwing up almost immediately..
