I don't know what to do anymore

[ARHCC]

Sometimes this forum is all I have. My husband lost his job at the beginning of June and I lost my job two weeks later. I had just started my job and they told me I could not keep up. I resigned from my pervious job that I was at for over a year, and took the risk on this because it is what I thought God wanted me to do after much prayer. Im in a state of depression where I hate to even wake up in the mornings and all I want to do is go back to sleep at this point. My husband and I are both forced to take entry level positions at a temp place to make it until we find something else. I feel okay with that, but I'm hurting so bad right now, I feel like a failure. I wish I had someone to talk to, but I don't, I really don't feel like the church I attend cares and most just tell me it will be okay, and so does my family. Just trust God they say and I try, but it is hard. I try to pray, but I couldn't even do that at first because I was in such a mental fog that I didn't even know how to. Now I have been praying more, but don't feel a connection with God at all. I have had a really rough year in general, and know people are tired of hearing me whine, and I feel like all I do is bother people with my problems. I feel so tired of feeling alone, and deserted by everyone. I didn't attend church today, simply because I couldn't bring myself to do it. I'm starting to wish I didn't even exist. I'm at my wits end.

 

[ripple the car]

Will pray.

Sometimes, my most fruitful prayers start with "God, I'm tired and crabby..."

Life can be tough, friend. Work can be tough. Do the best you can with this new temp job. Work as for Christ, and take it one day at a time.

You are not a failure.

 

[Monksailor]

I feel for you sister. I love you and hear the crying in your heart. God, who sent His Son Jesus to suffer and die so that we could be redeemed and have a beloved and cared-for child relationship with Him, our Loving Father, loves you like no other can and IS there right with you. Let Him embrace you. Lean in to and rest in His love as He holds you against His bosom. Release your fears and worry and anxiety and let them flow to Him. He WILL take care of you, His child. He will NEVER leave you NOR forsake you as He promised. You shall recover and be strengthened and mount up and soar as eagles. Life in Christ is REALLY "One Day at a Time, Sweet Jesus." I just finished watching David Jeremiah's sermon for last week. He is addressing about 10 "Giants" which we all face as Christians such as loneliness, worry, fear, and guilt in his current series. Last week was worry. One of my giants. I didn't have my notebook with me to take notes which REALLY helps me to imprint it so this am I watched it again. Today's sermon was on the giant of guilt and I will catch it later but I needed to re-watch the one on worry as I have so many, many projects occurring between two houses, significant family issues, and trying to find a congregation of worship, service, and fellowship which I can trust again. Priorities are constantly changing due to deadlines with serious financial consequences coming from multiple sources or weather or a disabled truck and many other uncontrollable and unforeseen factors.
I don't know for sure but it seems like you are being challenged by the giant of Worry and maybe others. May I suggest this site to view Pastor David Jeremiah: Watch Christian TV Shows, Ministry Video Broadcasts Online They do the whole service with "ads"mixed in before and after the sermon. The quantity of ad time has really increased in the past few years. It annoys me but it IS expensive to buy airtime and he is on at several time slots and does have a worldwide evangelic ministry. He is an exceptional expounder upon God's Word and worth the listen. I usually skip (using my laptop) to his sermon about 20 min into the hour after listening to/singing with one or two songs. Note: If you select the half-hour long TV presentation there will be parts of his sermon cut out.
A couple of my notes:

• No amount of worry will change the future or past,
• Anxiety/worry and appropriate concern have a clear delineation,
• The ineffectiveness of the activity of worry will get NOTHING accomplished today or tomorrow,
• Funny sign at gas station: "......",
• And to me, "Read EVERY morn: Ps 50:15, Ps 55:22, 1Pt 5:7, and t, Phil 4:6-7"

ARHCC, I will pray for you and try to remember you. God is with you right where you are, right where you hide. As Twila Paris sings, Lean in to Him. He loves it when His children lean on Him.
I should add that in my Christian love for you and what you have shared I also love your husband and feel for him as he also deals what you yourself have shared. I know that you probably don't want to burden him any more with your concerns right now. I am praying for BOTH of you. Isa 40:30-31

 

[royal priest]

Sometimes this forum is all I have. My husband lost his job at the beginning of June and I lost my job two weeks later. I had just started my job and they told me I could not keep up. I resigned from my pervious job that I was at for over a year, and took the risk on this because it is what I thought God wanted me to do after much prayer. Im in a state of depression where I hate to even wake up in the mornings and all I want to do is go back to sleep at this point. My husband and I are both forced to take entry level positions at a temp place to make it until we find something else. I feel okay with that, but I'm hurting so bad right now, I feel like a failure. I wish I had someone to talk to, but I don't, I really don't feel like the church I attend cares and most just tell me it will be okay, and so does my family. Just trust God they say and I try, but it is hard. I try to pray, but I couldn't even do that at first because I was in such a mental fog that I didn't even know how to. Now I have been praying more, but don't feel a connection with God at all. I have had a really rough year in general, and know people are tired of hearing me whine, and I feel like all I do is bother people with my problems. I feel so tired of feeling alone, and deserted by everyone. I didn't attend church today, simply because I couldn't bring myself to do it. I'm starting to wish I didn't even exist. I'm at my wits end.

In spite of all our sorrows, we have so much that we do not deserve from God and ought to be immensely grateful for. The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of our Lord.
In order to teach us the joy of knowing Him, the Father of every good and perfect gift sometimes takes away our earthly comforts. In this way, God's children are often taught that we are the creature and He the Creator. And though we wouldn't plan our way the way He does for us, we will see in the end, that He led us as a wise and faithful Shepherd.
By taking away yours and your husband's jobs, God has provided you with a unique opportunity to spend time as a family and serve Him in ways you would not otherwise have been able.

 

[ARHCC]

I feel for you sister. I love you and hear the crying in your heart. God, who sent His Son Jesus to suffer and die so that we could be redeemed and have a beloved and cared-for child relationship with Him, our Loving Father, loves you like no other can and IS there right with you. Let Him embrace you. Lean in to and rest in His love as He holds you against His bosom. Release your fears and worry and anxiety and let them flow to Him. He WILL take care of you, His child. He will NEVER leave you NOR forsake you as He promised. You shall recover and be strengthened and mount up and soar as eagles. Life in Christ is REALLY "One Day at a Time, Sweet Jesus." I just finished watching David Jeremiah's sermon for last week. He is addressing about 10 "Giants" which we all face as Christians such as loneliness, worry, fear, and guilt in his current series. Last week was worry. One of my giants. I didn't have my notebook with me to take notes which REALLY helps me to imprint it so this am I watched it again. Today's sermon was on the giant of guilt and I will catch it later but I needed to re-watch the one on worry as I have so many, many projects occurring between two houses, significant family issues, and trying to find a congregation of worship, service, and fellowship which I can trust again. Priorities are constantly changing due to deadlines with serious financial consequences coming from multiple sources or weather or a disabled truck and many other uncontrollable and unforeseen factors.
I don't know for sure but it seems like you are being challenged by the giant of Worry and maybe others. May I suggest this site to view Pastor David Jeremiah: Watch Christian TV Shows, Ministry Video Broadcasts Online They do the whole service with "ads"mixed in before and after the sermon. The quantity of ad time has really increased in the past few years. It annoys me but it IS expensive to buy airtime and he is on at several time slots and does have a worldwide evangelic ministry. He is an exceptional expounder upon God's Word and worth the listen. I usually skip (using my laptop) to his sermon about 20 min into the hour after listening to/singing with one or two songs. Note: If you select the half-hour long TV presentation there will be parts of his sermon cut out.
A couple of my notes:

• No amount of worry will change the future or past,
• Anxiety/worry and appropriate concern have a clear delineation,
• The ineffectiveness of the activity of worry will get NOTHING accomplished today or tomorrow,
• Funny sign at gas station: "......",
• And to me, "Read EVERY morn: Ps 50:15, Ps 55:22, 1Pt 5:7, and t, Phil 4:6-7"

ARHCC, I will pray for you and try to remember you. God is with you right where you are, right where you hide. As Twila Paris sings, Lean in to Him. He loves it when His children lean on Him.
I should add that in my Christian love for you and what you have shared I also love your husband and feel for him as he also deals what you yourself have shared. I know that you probably don't want to burden him any more with your concerns right now. I am praying for BOTH of you. Isa 40:30-31

Thank You so much.