i dont know anymore.

[becausehelives]

Hello,

Just a word of encouragement for the (believer). You already have the victory in this situation. You are confessing to your brothers and sisters. You do and must know that you are not just here by accident. things may have not always gone the way you would have mapped out your life, but God is God.. You do have a purpose. You will remeber this one day, that you were at a breaking point in your faith.

It was for freedom that CHRIST SET US FREE: therefore keep standing firm and do not be subject again to a yoke of slavery. (GAL.5:1)

You are more than a conqueror, through Christ that loves you!!

 

[Endure2]

sorry guys, thats just not true.

i dont think ill be back on here anymore.

its been good, bye bye.

Lee.

 

[Dismayed]

if you ask me you are being blinded by satan himself. that is his goal, to drive believers away from God. pure and simple. you need to sit down and analyse where these feelings of God not existing come from. Satan uses many forms of trickery. Temptations are obviously his favorite, when he leads you into temptation he leads you away from God. You cannot have two Gods, if you love sin you will hate God, and vice versa.
this may make you feel bad, because of where you are right now and how you look at yourself, i understand. but it is the truth. just know that Jesus is always waiting for you to turn back to him.

 

[Endure2]

hi everyone, im in the hotel ready to ship out tomorrow.
so this will be my last for a long time.

over the last 3 days ive had conversations with 3 or 4 people who i am very close to and who are my fellow christians.
after these conversations (mainly my friend john's) and sunday service, i asked the Lord to have me back and i do believe in him, though i dont really believe much else.

im not ready to go back to the extreme lifestyle for God that i use to live, and i dont really even have a theology, i dont know if everything the bible says is true or not, i still dont know about so many things, but i do believe in God and have asked him to be myne.

im pretty much starting all over in my faith, im not ready for the drama that my life use to be, and im trying to aviod superficial things and beliefs and actions, im to tired to go and do much, i just want to rest in him and if anything is going to happen its gonna have to sure enough be him and not me.
becuase im sick and tired of things that arent real.

 

[angelwind]

hi everyone, im in the hotel ready to ship out tomorrow.
so this will be my last for a long time.

over the last 3 days ive had conversations with 3 or 4 people who i am very close to and who are my fellow christians.
after these conversations (mainly my friend john's) and sunday service, i asked the Lord to have me back and i do believe in him, though i dont really believe much else.

im not ready to go back to the extreme lifestyle for God that i use to live, and i dont really even have a theology, i dont know if everything the bible says is true or not, i still dont know about so many things, but i do believe in God and have asked him to be myne.

im pretty much starting all over in my faith, im not ready for the drama that my life use to be, and im trying to aviod superficial things and beliefs and actions, im to tired to go and do much, i just want to rest in him and if anything is going to happen its gonna have to sure enough be him and not me.
becuase im sick and tired of things that arent real.

I will keep praying for you...I am sure others will be praying too...

 

[Galadriel]

hi everyone, im in the hotel ready to ship out tomorrow.
so this will be my last for a long time.

over the last 3 days ive had conversations with 3 or 4 people who i am very close to and who are my fellow christians.
after these conversations (mainly my friend john's) and sunday service, i asked the Lord to have me back and i do believe in him, though i dont really believe much else.

im not ready to go back to the extreme lifestyle for God that i use to live, and i dont really even have a theology, i dont know if everything the bible says is true or not, i still dont know about so many things, but i do believe in God and have asked him to be myne.

im pretty much starting all over in my faith, im not ready for the drama that my life use to be, and im trying to aviod superficial things and beliefs and actions, im to tired to go and do much, i just want to rest in him and if anything is going to happen its gonna have to sure enough be him and not me.
becuase im sick and tired of things that arent real.

I've read through this whole thread sitting here and it makes me want to help you and fix this for you. I don't know if what I have to say will help, but maybe you will read this sometime.

It sounds to me like you may be "shedding" some things that you had before about Christianity, and are now kind of "starting over" but in a very good way. Like holo said "losing your religion".

I know in my life there was a time when I was just thinking to myself "I can't live like this anymore", I just wasn't into the whole hanging around with other christians acting like everything is pie in the sky and just the whole atmosphere of it. Its hard to explain. Like people and family would tell me things trying to help me and answer my questions but it just wasn't enough or something. I remember asking my mom if I HAD to be a christian to get to heaven, and she said "no you can be anything and still go" but I just knew this wasn't right, so I kept somehow hanging on. The thing was now that I look back I was trying to fit in the mold everyone else was in, but it wasn't working. I mean I was trying to be a christian how everyone else was doing it. Going to all the functions, all the services and such, and it was like I wanted God without all the "wrappings" or something. Does this make sense? I hope this is helping you somehow. Can you relate to any of this? I really felt like I just couldn't "do" chiristianity anymore. The thing was I could its just I was trying to do it the way everyone else was. I hope this helps some. I feel like now though I've really found it, tho trials still come and such. Praying for you...

 

[briareos]

i dont know why im making this post really, just thought i might should.

alot has happened and changed over the past year for me, alot of ups and downs, alot of choices good and bad, im not the same person i was 1 year ago.
no where near.

i dont know if i believe in God anymore, i know i use to post here alot and alot of people liked what i posted, but i honestly dont feel the way i use to anymore, its not like it use to be, im certainly not who i used to be.

i dont think i believe this anymore...
and even all the recent reconvertions i made recently, trying to make my life right again... i just dont think i can do this anymore, it feels like im living someone elses life, like a life full of cliches and idealism and lofty thoughts, sometimes it doesnt seem real. sometimes it seems like i try to find God but im really beginning to think no ones there, its like i sense that no one is really there.

im just not who i use to be, and a large part of me doesnt want to go back, i feel likes its all a bunch of grand stories, like im being fooled into a playing a part of a grand scheme that isnt real.
this is honestly how i feel right now, it was the worst yesterday.

i tried to repent of my sin and ask Jesus to help me, but it seemed like he wasnt there. and all of a sudden its like it dawned on me, that God isnt real, it was never real....

and the life i use to live and things i use to fully believe, they all seem like a big sharade now... a bunch of fools dreams.
it seems like reality and common sense is telling me to walk away from all this.

i havent made up my mind about anything, im scared of alot, scared to face my christian friends becuase i dont want to hear what they'll say, and scared to walk away from christianity becuase its all ive ever known and a part of me feels like im betraying my oldest and longest friend, but its really beginning to seem like its just a hoax and its all for nothing.

i just dont know anything anymore.
i dont believe anything whole heartedly anymore.
but nosticism doesnt look so foolish to me anymore. i used to condemn it, but now, im this close to falling into it head over heals.

Thanks everyone who was around for this and prayed for me, that was me. Eventually the love and prayers of my family and the power of God rescued me from my storm of dissilusions. Praise God! I am so Glad that God is real and that he never gave up on me and my family and friends never gave up on me. I just remember being so lost and so sad... I wanted God to be real I really did but I was so lost.

Thank you Jesus, thank you so much. I was lost but now I am found.

 

[FoundInGrace]

that is so great to hear! Thanks heaps for letting us know

 

[briareos]

Thank you for your care and prayers. This means so much to me.

 

[tturt]

Thanks for your testimony of His everlasting, deep love.