My feelings on the matter:
Ive heard so many say that we are somehow different then the disciples, as if they had some special dispensation for suffering that somehow does not apply to us.
They were men like us. They had hopes and fears. They had trouble understanding the revelations God was giving them. (just like us). God was surely with them! He delivered them from jail (after they were flogged). Paul was raised up (after he was stoned). Stephen lifted his eyes to heaven and saw Jesus at the right hand of the Father as he was being executed. And, In spite of their faith, and hope, and trust; in spite of the fact that they were delivered many times, there came a time when the jail door did not swing open and the chains did not fall away. Every one of them with the exception of John was martyred.
Surely it is a shame that they did not understand the bible (as they were writing it) If they had only understood things the way we do, they could have marched around Herods palace and claimed it in the name of the Lord. They and all those who died in the Roman games, or were burned like candles in Neros garden could have been spared. I guess they just died for lack of knowledge Its really sad, so many died praising God thanking Him that they were counted worthy to suffer What an awful testimony that must have been. If they had only had more faith.
John O.