I don't fit into anybody's time frame

[usedupanddirty]

Several years ago, I had 3 abortions. (Long story short). I've tried to bury it and forget, but lately, the things I normally do to cope haven't been working as well. I've tried contacting crisis pregnancy centers that do some sort of group study thing. But one told me they would work with my funky schedule, but then wondered why I didn't show up. When I reminded them of what they said, I was told they would call back. But they didn't. So I tried another one. This time, the woman said she would meet one on one with me because of my schedule, so I thought it would finally work out. But every time I went, I waited 15-20 min past my appointment time and the lights were always turned off. I felt very much like a bother. So the last time, after waiting 15 min, I walked out and left. Never went back. Recently, I looked online for something to help. I contacted a lady who gave me an email of a woman to contact and I did. I told her about my schedule and asked for help. She gave me the dates for the group, but there were 5 times that I would miss. When I told her this, she gave me the name of a counselor in my area. I've contacted the counselor, but haven't heard anything back. I just feel like I'm a bother and because I don't fit into their time frame, they pass me off on to somebody else. I'm scared to try the counselor, because last time I tried a counselor, the woman told me that if my uncle was still hurting kids that it was my fault because I hadn't reported it then as a child, and I didn't want to report it now....25+ yrs later. I never went back.

I guess I'm just tired of asking for help and being turned away. I don't want to look anymore, but I don't like feeling like this either.

Back in December, I had a miscarriage too. And the delivery date is coming up in August. I'm dreading it.

 

[RuthD]

I'm sorry you are having such a rough time of it. Have you thought about seeing your pastor? Do you want to say what it is that is troubling you here? Praying for you.

 

[Larry Mondello]

Several years ago, I had 3 abortions. (Long story short).

I've tried to bury it and forget, but lately, the things I normally do to cope haven't been working as well.

Hey Used,
Am sorry you're struggling with this.

Back in December, I had a miscarriage too. And the delivery date is coming up in August. I'm dreading it.

I know abortion and miscarriage are serious things so I won't pretend to think I know all about those issues which tear at women's hearts.

If you're a Christian and you've repented, asked God for forgiveness, you should ease your mind and stop letting it get to you all the time.

You were younger then, and now you're older and much wiser.
Would you do that again? I think not, given all you've been through.
So don't unnecessarily condemn yourself over something that's common.

Came across this verse today. I think it can apply to you:
There is therefore now no condemnation to them who are in Christ Jesus. Romans 8:1

 

[Just4Jesus]

Several years ago, I had 3 abortions. (Long story short). I've tried to bury it and forget, but lately, the things I normally do to cope haven't been working as well. I've tried contacting crisis pregnancy centers that do some sort of group study thing. But one told me they would work with my funky schedule, but then wondered why I didn't show up. When I reminded them of what they said, I was told they would call back. But they didn't. So I tried another one. This time, the woman said she would meet one on one with me because of my schedule, so I thought it would finally work out. But every time I went, I waited 15-20 min past my appointment time and the lights were always turned off. I felt very much like a bother. So the last time, after waiting 15 min, I walked out and left. Never went back. Recently, I looked online for something to help. I contacted a lady who gave me an email of a woman to contact and I did. I told her about my schedule and asked for help. She gave me the dates for the group, but there were 5 times that I would miss. When I told her this, she gave me the name of a counselor in my area. I've contacted the counselor, but haven't heard anything back. I just feel like I'm a bother and because I don't fit into their time frame, they pass me off on to somebody else. I'm scared to try the counselor, because last time I tried a counselor, the woman told me that if my uncle was still hurting kids that it was my fault because I hadn't reported it then as a child, and I didn't want to report it now....25+ yrs later. I never went back.

I guess I'm just tired of asking for help and being turned away. I don't want to look anymore, but I don't like feeling like this either.

Back in December, I had a miscarriage too. And the delivery date is coming up in August. I'm dreading it.

I'm so sorry. Please update and let us know how things are working out for you. I hope you can get the help you need.