Lady Bug Sister!! I feel you, I am going through the same exact thing right now.. But I know it is a right now, not forever, thing.. I like what someone said about St. Teresa, who continued to serve God in her dark times.. I continue to serve God as well even in my dark time.. Many Saints have referred to this as the "Dark Night of the Soul".. And how much peace it gives me knowing a Saint has been through this too.. A time when you doubt yourself, doubt the Lord in you life, feel lost and alone, abandoned, forgotten.. The Saints give us hope!! Praise be to God!!
But most important, as many people have stated above, you need to feed your soul sister!! If you aren't a Catholic and don't feel comfortable going to the Catholic Church, you need to read the Bible or read a book that feeds you the food you are craving.. We all have different needs and different gifts.. I myself have the gift of Discernment, so my soul food is Bible, Church Fathers, TRUTH!!! If you have the gift of Charity like St. Teresa feed yourself by volunteering for the needy, or helping a friend.. I tend to learn better when I teach too, I get way more out of teaching than I do being taught!! lol Bad, sounds like I lack Wisdom!!
I always tell people in this state, that they need to have a healthy dose of the Religious Trinity, "Prayer, Bible, Sacraments." Prayer is our personal relationship with God, the Bible is Word of God, Jesus our Savior.. And through the Father and Son, we get the Sacraments, the Holy Spirit.. All very important, can't have one be successful without the other..
This is a beautiful poem indicating, though he was experiencing the night, he still delighted in knowing God.
St. John of the Cross, "
Song of the Soul That Delights in Knowing God by Faith"[FONT=Georgia,Times New Roman,Times,serif]
Well I know the fountain that runs and flows,
though it is night!
This eternal fountain is hidden deep.
Well I know where it has its spring,
Though it is night!
In this life's dark night,
Faith has taught where this cold fountain lies,
Though it is night!
Its origin I cannot know, it has none,
And I know all origins come from it,
Though it is night!
And I know there can be nothing more fair,
The heavens and earth drink there,
Though it is night!
And I know it has no bed,
And I know no one can cross its depths,
Though it is night!
Its clarity is never clouded,
And I know all light shines from it,
Though it is night!
I know her streams swell so abundantly,
They water people, heaven and even hell,
Though it is night!
The current born of this fountain
I know to be wide and mighty,
Though it is night!
And from these two another stream flows,
And I know neither comes before,
Though it is night!
I know Three in only one water live,
And each the other feeds,
Though it is night!
This eternal fountain is hiding from sight
Within this living bread to give us life,
Though it is night!
He calls all creatures to this light,
And of this water they drink, though in the dark,
Though it is night!
This living fountain I desire,
I see it here within this living bread,
Though it is night!
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My little prayer for you!!!
May the Blessings of God be upon you,
May His Peace abide in you,
May His Presence Illuminate your heart,
Now and forever more, Amen..
God Bless You Sister, just keeping feeding your soul and seeking him, He will quench your thirst, but you must work up a sweat first!!
