Nice verses Chinchilla!
Hi Andrew, the fact that you are still here, means that God has a perfect plan for you.
Philippians 1:6 King James Bible:
Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:
Life without Jesus Christ is all vanity.
King Solomon the wisest person that ever lived on this earth (aside of Jesus Christ) and the richest man that ever lived, said in Ecclesiastes:
Ecclesiastes 1:2 King James Bible:
2. Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity.
3. What profit hath a man of all his labour which he taketh under the sun?
4. One generation passeth away, and another generation cometh: but the earth abideth for ever.
5. The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down, and hasteth to his place where he arose.
6. The wind goeth toward the south, and turneth about unto the north; it whirleth about continually, and the wind returneth again according to his circuits.
7. All the rivers run into the sea; yet the sea is not full; unto the place from whence the rivers come, thither they return again.
8. All things are full of labour; man cannot utter it: the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.
9. The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.
10. Is there any thing whereof it may be said, See, this is new? it hath been already of old time, which was before us.
11. There is no remembrance of former things; neither shall there be any remembrance of things that are to come with those that shall come after.
Here is King Solomon with all the riches of the world, yet, in the end he said it is all worthless. Life without God, life without Jesus Christ, is all a waste. Our life on earth is so short and quick, like the wind that comes and goes.
Andrew, just ask God, pray to him, ask Him to Save you. Your prayer can sound like the following:
"Dear Heavenly Father, God in Heaven, please Save me from this world, please save me from my sins. I believe in your Son, Jesus Christ, that He died on the cross and shed His Blood for me, so that I all my sins are forgiven, forever. And that Jesus was buried and rose again after three days and ascended to Heaven who is now seated on the right hand of God. With the Blood of Jesus, God you see me as Holy and without blame. I accept Jesus Christ as my Saviour and trust only in Jesus Christ to get to Heaven.
Thank you for your Grace and for giving me the Faith to believe in the one and only Saviour, Jesus Christ. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen".
God Bless You Andrew!!