I Could Use A Hug

[gracechick]

I'm really down on myself tonite I have lost most of my friends do to the SAD & Panic Disorder. But I'm feeling bad about myself, bcause I worry about the affect these disorders may be having on my daughter.

I havn't taken her to church for over a year. I don't go out often & I wish my husband would take her out more. At least to church.
I'm struggling with this now, bcause once again my parents wanted to know if they can take my baby to church next sunday. I feel so low. I knew something was different for me even as a child, but I never thought everyday life things could become so tough

 

[restore]

Baby, the lord is talking to u,
U r my daughter ,
I m with u while u r looking after your little kid,
I will give u strength.
I will wake up who u r
I will make u grow from your inner child.
I m with u in every little moment and little thing.

 

[gracechick]

Thank you Restore I just clicked here on the off chance someone was passing through this late. Your reply meant so much & I pray it comes to pass real soon

 

[kimba]

I will lift you today. God bless you.

 

[wiggsfly]

I will keep you in my prayers. Feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to.

 

[gracechick]

Thank you guys. The people here are awesome...

 

[Mr.Cheese]

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[Liftyourhand7]

Hi Gracechick,

I send to you a big hug, just know that I love you and am praying for you, I just want to encorage you, please try if at all possible to just get up and go to church even if you don't feel like it, God will meet you right where you are right now, but He wants so much for us to trust him and being around other believers helps so much, believe me when I tell you that I have struggled with this disorder for many years, and I have to make myself do things, but after I do them I am glad and grateful to God that I did them even though I didn't want to. I will be praying for you my sister you are dear to God's heart and to mine. Blessings Jan

 

[amishparadise]

Would your church be willing to accomodate you with "shut-in" visitation due to your anxiety disorder?

 

[gracealone]

HI Gracechick,
God knows just how painful it is for you to be in the setting of church just now. This is no different really than someone who can't go to church because of some other kind of illness.
He knows you want to be there, He knows your heart.
I have been in that place too. When my children were little I was in pretty bad shape with both Panic Disorder and OCD. My husband worked on Sunday so it was my responsibility to get them to church. This was a horrific struggle for me. Sitting in church brought on the most terrible panic attacks every single Sunday. Many Sundays I would just not go and told others that I didn't feel well because it was so draining to get through it.
But I have to agree with Jan that the only way to do battle with this is to keep trying to expose yourself to the situations that cause the spikes. You don't have to do it all the way or all at once. You can start by doing it in baby steps. Sit at the back of the church on the edge of a pew for as long as you can endure it then just slip out when you need to. I used to go into the ladies room for a while until I could compose myself and then slipped back in for a bit. Don't get down on yourself for having to leave. It's not by any means an easy thing to do and you don't get better in an instant. The improvements will be small and subtle and often the only way to gauge them is by looking back over many months.

I will be praying for you. Don't beat yourself up about this as this is only a symptom of the disorder and it's certainly not something that you have chosen to do but something that the disorder is causing you to do.
I know how bad it feels to be in your position. People feel sympathetic to those who can't do church because of other types of illnesses but they really just don't get how incredibly painful church can be for those of us with religious OCD, social anxiety, or panic attacks. What adds to that pain is our great desire to be there and be able to have the joy that those around us are experiencing while there.
Some day, you will know that again.
For now though you have to just take one day at a time and please don't blame yourself as that will only make your disorder worse.
God Bless,
Mitzi

 

[gracechick]

Would your church be willing to accomodate you with "shut-in" visitation due to your anxiety disorder?

That would be nice for now, but the church we attended had problems & it doesn't seem like the Lord wants us to go back. I have looked through some papers for information about local churches.

 

[gracechick]

Mitzi,

I only have one baby, but my husband does shift work so there are some sunday mornings he could go. & others he is simply too tired to attend with us. I can certainly empathesize with some of your post.

Bless you all for such support & prayers Please know that I am extending mine to you as well

 

[DruryGirl]

Hoping for good things come to you today.

 

[gracechick]

Thank you
Sending you warm thoughts of hope as well

 

[gracechick]

Hi Gracechick,

I send to you a big hug, just know that I love you and am praying for you, I just want to encorage you, please try if at all possible to just get up and go to church even if you don't feel like it, God will meet you right where you are right now, but He wants so much for us to trust him and being around other believers helps so much, believe me when I tell you that I have struggled with this disorder for many years, and I have to make myself do things, but after I do them I am glad and grateful to God that I did them even though I didn't want to. I will be praying for you my sister you are dear to God's heart and to mine. Blessings Jan

Thank you Jan for the encouragement & prayers.
Hugs to all others here for the support. There are so many wonderful people here & Im thankful for each of you.