I hate even the thought of looking at myself in a mirror. The shame of my past and the things I have experienced cripple me. Every day I wear the same outfit in order to have control over something. It is comfortable and doesn't draw attention to me.
When I'm out in public I can tell people are staring. They see the shame and the dirtiness of my soul. God has cursed me, and not only do I have to live with shame, but I have to live with the thought that I'm carrying evil inside of me.
My life is full of torment: from the moment I wake until I sleep. And it doesn't stop there. I have nightmares where I replay the events of my life. God wants me to suffer.
When I'm out in public I can tell people are staring. They see the shame and the dirtiness of my soul. God has cursed me, and not only do I have to live with shame, but I have to live with the thought that I'm carrying evil inside of me.
My life is full of torment: from the moment I wake until I sleep. And it doesn't stop there. I have nightmares where I replay the events of my life. God wants me to suffer.