I can't handle it, is there any way to avert this mentality?

[Michie]

My main reason for being opposed to them was because I was prescribed Imipramine (sp) years ago and the side effects were horrible. I decided I wasn’t going to take psych meds after that. Then I was referred to a doctor who let me participate in making meds decisions rather than prescribing something and expecting me to take them. I started out slowly then built up when I realized I wasn’t having any side effects. And no more Imipramine.

I think the mental health aspect of healthcare is sorely lacking. I’m glad you found a doctor willing to listen. Many don’t.

 

[Lady Bug]

I said I have no side effects but I rarely cry or belly laugh these days. Is that emotional blunting? If so, I miss that but it’s worth it.

Yes that is emotional blunting.

 

[FaithT]

I think the mental health aspect of healthcare is sorely lacking. I’m glad you found a doctor willing to listen. Many don’t.

You’ve got that right.

 

[Michie]

You’ve got that right.

I get so frustrated with it as my sister and sister in law deal with these issues. That whole system needs to be updated where people can actually get the care they need to live more normal lives.

 

[boughtwithaprice]

I have an appointment in November (my last one was in August) but I don't want to be dependent on psych meds any longer

I don't hate this person. I'm obsessed with him

Ok, I have been there and done that. I was obsessed with a person before and could not get them out of my mind and used it as an excuse to drag other people into my obsession. I could give you the details but it’s enough to know that it was completely irrational. Yes it involved what obsession with the opposite sex which was misconstrued as love.

Yes I felt my obsession was unique and no one understands. It took me decades of God’s mercy to realize that my love for God was more important than my obsession. I mean, God, the creator of the universe loves me and gave Himself for me, and I want to discard that because I can’t get over whether another person loves me or not?
I am not belittling you. It took me over 40 years to get to this point. I feel what you are going through. It is a huge weight and a deep ache
Just know that those feelings do not come from God. Spirits are distracting you and pulling you down. They want you to get to the point where you tell God, hey I am so bad off, even you can’t help me, then they have you

You don’t have to torture yourself by going to a parish where you have to see this obsession and have him distract you from God. Your life is worth more than this

 

[Lady Bug]

Ok, I have been there and done that. I was obsessed with a person before and could not get them out of my mind and used it as an excuse to drag other people into my obsession. I could give you the details but it’s enough to know that it was completely irrational. Yes it involved what obsession with the opposite sex which was misconstrued as love.

Yes I felt my obsession was unique and no one understands. It took me decades of God’s mercy to realize that my love for God was more important than my obsession. I mean, God, the creator of the universe loves me and gave Himself for me, and I want to discard that because I can’t get over whether another person loves me or not?
I am not belittling you. It took me over 40 years to get to this point. I feel what you are going through. It is a huge weight and a deep ache
Just know that those feelings do not come from God. Spirits are distracting you and pulling you down. They want you to get to the point where you tell God, hey I am so bad off, even you can’t help me, then they have you

You don’t have to torture yourself by going to a parish where you have to see this obsession and have him distract you from God. Your life is worth more than this

I don't know if you are averse to people PMing you but I'm not sure the rest of the story is something I want to broadcast.

 

[boughtwithaprice]

I don't know if you are averse to people PMing you but I'm not sure the rest of the story is something I want to broadcast.

Pm is good if you want to talk openly and privately
If it can help, I would be happy to share my story and hear yours

 

[johnnypapa]

My question is, I can't handle the feeling I get when I have to walk past all the pews to get to the front and "everyone is looking at meeee" and I feel like they all hate me. It may never fully end. (I like the front because I can't stand seeing ANYONE'S heads in front of me, lol. It's a distraction. The only exception are handicapped people who may need to sit in the front pew. They're excused)

Wow, you sit in the front? They might be impressed with you. I am! Growing up in Catholic schools and being tall, I was conditioned to sit in the back! Some think that the seating order was determined by smarts, not so, but if it were, I would have been back there anyway, lol. To this day, I head for the familiar comfort of the back pews also with the thought I do not want to block anyone's view!

Seriously though, I don't think anyone even notices, except for maybe a small thought of familiarity if you sit in the same area all the time.

 

[FaithT]

Wow, you sit in the front? They might be impressed with you. I am! Growing up in Catholic schools and being tall, I was conditioned to sit in the back! Some think that the seating order was determined by smarts, not so, but if it were, I would have been back there anyway, lol. To this day, I head for the familiar comfort of the back pews also with the thought I do not want to block anyone's view!

Seriously though, I don't think anyone even notices, except for maybe a small thought of familiarity if you sit in the same area all the time.

These days I head for the back pew too, so I’m close to the bathroom and if I have a panic attack, I’m close to the doors.

 

[Lady Bug]

These days I head for the back pew too, so I’m close to the bathroom and if I have a panic attack, I’m close to the doors.

The bathroom is a compelling argument but if only I could stand to see people's heads in front of me...

 

[FaithT]

The bathroom is a compelling argument but if only I could stand to see people's heads in front of me...

I’m always scooting around trying to see the priest instead of what always seems to be a big head blocking my view.

 

[Lady Bug]

I’m always scooting around trying to see the priest instead of what always seems to be a big head blocking my view.

I might be the one with the big head, annoying others