I can't go on anymore...

[Forge3]

I'm an nursing student, 31,..getting my 2nd degree...

It's hard...the school itself is hard..and I got nobody to talk to. I feel like my clinical group don't like me...and it seems like they are avoiding me..and not telling me important school stuff. I see lot of classmates (even those who are not in my clinical group) who have nursing buddies to help each other out. I am alone in the nursing game...and I don't think i'll survive. I wish God can send me a buddy to help each other out to get through nursing program. I feel like killing myself. I'm in major depression....

Please, don't bother responding to me with, "it's going to be okay," because it's not and it's rude. It's a false assurance.

Praying for you and your situation.

 

[koban4max]

Praying for you and your situation.

thank you. I just need that...

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, brother.

 

[Philothei]

Prayers to you! May the Lord guide you and keep you safe at this time of your need!

 

[koban4max]

Um..i just wanna thank you guys..really..bottom of my heart...thank you and god.

 

[Lambreborn]

I am a veteran nurse with 20yrs experience. Nursing school is tough and unfortunately the students make it tougher. I was in the same situation during my junior year of nursing school. I had no friends and everyone in class hated me. I knew in my heart that God wanted me to be a nurse and that helped me through the tough parts. Yes it is tough and you will want to quit at times. Think of those patients that will benefit from having a caring nurse like you in their time of need. You will come across a lot of hurting people in your nursing career. Not just physically hurting but spiritually as well. What better person to help them then a Christian who has gone through tough times and made it through. Hang in there. We need people like you in this profession. I am there for you if you ever need someone to talk to.

 

[koban4max]

I am a veteran nurse with 20yrs experience. Nursing school is tough and unfortunately the students make it tougher. I was in the same situation during my junior year of nursing school. I had no friends and everyone in class hated me. I knew in my heart that God wanted me to be a nurse and that helped me through the tough parts. Yes it is tough and you will want to quit at times. Think of those patients that will benefit from having a caring nurse like you in their time of need. You will come across a lot of hurting people in your nursing career. Not just physically hurting but spiritually as well. What better person to help them then a Christian who has gone through tough times and made it through. Hang in there. We need people like you in this profession. I am there for you if you ever need someone to talk to.

inspirational

 

[Juan Rosario]

Dear koban4max,

There are several things you could do to improve your current difficult situation and realtionship with your colleagues:

1) Pray and declare in audible voice (if possible) that you have the favor and mercy of your colleagues!

2) Buy some chocolates or candy and give them as a gift the next time you see your colleagues

3) Learn an make a clean joke to your colleagues

All of the above will help you to improve your relationship with you colleagues. Also, please read the following paragraph that I copy from my new eBook, The Wealth Mystery Is No Secret:

The purpose of unexpected difficulties or life tribulations is to develop our character. A character so strong that will allow us to be successful on every situation. “Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way” (James 1:2-3, The Message).

Copyright The Wealth Mystery Is No Secret by Juan Rosario
( www TheWealthMystery dot com)

 

[koban4max]

Dear koban4max,

There are several things you could do to improve your current difficult situation and realtionship with your colleagues:

1) Pray and declare in audible voice (if possible) that you have the favor and mercy of your colleagues!

2) Buy some chocolates or candy and give them as a gift the next time you see your colleagues

3) Learn an make a clean joke to your colleagues

All of the above will help you to improve your relationship with you colleagues. Also, please read the following paragraph that I copy from my new eBook, The Wealth Mystery Is No Secret:

The purpose of unexpected difficulties or life tribulations is to develop our character. A character so strong that will allow us to be successful on every situation. “Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way” (James 1:2-3, The Message).

Copyright The Wealth Mystery Is No Secret by Juan Rosario
( www TheWealthMystery dot com)

i'll just try that...why not. thx.

 

[Juan Rosario]

You know what Brother. Lets pray together: We declare in the name over all names, in the name of Yeshua (Jesuschrist) that You have the favor and mercy of your colleagues and the favor and mercy of Yahweh! Your favor and mercy, knowledge, intelligence and wisdom is multiple exponentially right now! Open Heavens and Amen!

 

[koban4max]

You know what Brother. Lets pray together: We declare in the name over all names, in the name of Yeshua (Jesuschrist) that You have the favor and mercy of your colleagues and the favor and mercy of Yahweh! Your favor and mercy, knowledge, intelligence and wisdom is multiple exponentially right now! Open Heavens and Amen!

Thank you, brother. It's a dark time for someone who happens to have a suicidal ideal.

 

[Juan Rosario]

Brother, I have being there. Believe it or not, it's normal to receive suicidal thoughts in our minds when we are passing through life tribulations.

Notice that I mentioned receive above, because evil spirits will through darts of suicidal thoughts to your mind. Most of the spiritual warfare is in the mind. However, they don't have the power or authority to make you commit suicide. Only you have the power to decide about your life and to overcome life tribulations.

Dear Brother, The Great Creator of the Universe has a great plan for your life. The Great Creator of the Universe has created us in His image (Genesis 1:26-27). He created us for an extraordinary purpose. The Great Creator of the Universe has a specific plan in mind for everyone.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).

Suicidal thought I command you to leave the mind of my Brother in the name of Jesuschrist. Hang in there Brother, because I declare in the name of Yeshua that suddently good things will happen to you!

 

[koban4max]

it's hard..i can't seem to move on in the program.

 

[joey_downunder]

Does your nursing school have any counsellors, support team etc for students available?

Have you considered seeking psychological/medical help? Are you affected by the seasons mood-wise?
I know when I was living down south I got mild Seasonal affective disorder every year.

 

[koban4max]

i'm in west coast...and no..i'm not affected by seasons mood or anything related...
It seems that my purpose to go here have been lost.... just like how I used to think God abandoned me while back. There are no support team or counsellors....well...maybe there is one..but....it's not helpful.

 

[joey_downunder]

By your purpose you mean in the nursing career itself?

So you had a period like you are experiencing now - what did you do or what happened to help you get out of it?

 

[koban4max]

I didn't think I would be able to get in to nursing program easily, but...I did. I am currently in second semester...(not sure how I survived the first semester), but...i always thought God wanted me to become a nurse. I do enjoy being a nursing student ... just the program itself is killing me. And to answer your first question..yes nursing career.

My problem haven't really gone away or been solved...it's just there. I'm just loosing it....

 

[joey_downunder]

I have just skimmed your past entries and I can't tell if you're doing the course full-time or part-time.

Is it possible to for you to defer a couple of subjects so you can focus on one or two subjects at a time?

I do remember how difficult the content of the nursing course is. It was challenging have to change my mindset all the time.
Essay-writing -> clinical health topics -> hands on care procedures and guidelines.

My year had a lot of drop-outs. 180 students in first-year -> 60 graduates after 3 years.

I repeat: Nursing is a very difficult course. Do you think your standards are unrealistically high? a pass is a pass is a pass.

 

[koban4max]

I have just skimmed your past entries and I can't tell if you're doing the course full-time or part-time.

Is it possible to for you to defer a couple of subjects so you can focus on one or two subjects at a time?

I do remember how difficult the content of the nursing course is. It was challenging have to change my mindset all the time.
Essay-writing -> clinical health topics -> hands on care procedures and guidelines.

My year had a lot of drop-outs. 180 students in first-year -> 60 graduates after 3 years.

I repeat: Nursing is a very difficult course. Do you think your standards are unrealistically high? a pass is a pass is a pass.

yeah..but i'm hardly passing. I know the subject is hard... and yes passing is passing.... it's just not simple to pass.

 

[joey_downunder]

I know I found the clincal hands-on harder than the actual pathophysiology/nursing theory.

Have you identified what are the areas you having difficulty in, and how have you gone in finding nursing information resources to help you figure it out? You know librarians, especially health librarians are trained to help students like yourself.

e.g. Here's some education links: Austin Health: Open Access

Please go to the library staff and explain what you're trying to find out, they love helping students/information seekers. They're not as intimidating as you'd think.