I can't do this anymore (long post)

[circa02]

I've posted for years here about my curse of being single and lonely, and I honestly can't remember if I've talked about my porn addiction. I've been struggling with both for over 15 years, and I am now a broken man. I have begged God every day for help, anything, and nothing has happened; I can't fight this anymore. I'm extremely horny ALL the time, and at 33 and still never even been on a date, I realize and accept I will always be alone, never to marry.
A big part of my porn addiction is my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and it leads me to seek out all sorts of sick things to generate relief, and on top of that, I always am thinking about and wanting sex, and I'm just unable to fight anymore; I'm so tired of being assaulted by these carnal desires that I can never fulfill, again because I not only never will marry, I don't even want to anymore. I don't have the constitution for a marriage, it's too hard, not that I ever will have the chance anyway.
I need sex, touching yourself is horrible, and it must be better to have normal sex with a consenting partner then to engage in fantasies so horrible and sick, I dare not ever reveal them. WHY won't God help me? Hasn't he promised he will always provide a way out for us? I can't live like this, the guilt, the anguish. I know you guys can do nothing but pray, and I would very much appreciate that.

 

[FutureAndAHope]

Hi mate,

The only way to solve this is to go cold turkey, you have to fight the desire like it is an addiction that is killing you.

There are probably a lot of things that keep you bound to porn, when I had a struggle with it was when I felt hopeless. Just a word of warning here, sex is not as good as it is made out to be, you will only ever really enjoy sex when it is in a loving relationship. Masturbation has the same high as real sex, believe me, don't risk real sex it will just make you feel guiltier. Sex is only good when you express love with it.

Why I say you need to go cold turkey is this. If you fight hard, real hard, you might actually succeed at breaking the habit. If you fall back into try cold turkey again. Eventually with strong will you will over come it. You have the will, but you need to use it. God wants you off porn, he loves you and does not want you bound to anything, he want you free. When you are free from it you can then start to see clearly to have a partner. I believe that God will provide you with some one when you can prove you are ready to handle it. You can't take porn into a relationship it will just kill the relationship, you need respect for the woman.