I want to ask you, what things are you paranoid about? We live in a world where we are taught that we are in control of our own destiny. The reality of life is, we have very little control over anything, including ourselves (sometimes). Ever try controlling someone else? How much success did you have.. Probably not very much. The point is illustrated in the scripture below:
James 4:13-15
13 Go to now, ye that say, To day or to morrow we will go into such a city, and continue there a year, and buy and sell, and get gain:
14 Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.
15 For that ye ought to say, If the Lord will, we shall live, and do this, or that.
You do not know what will happen, and have control over very little in life. This is why it is so very important to walk in a dependent relationship with Christ, who knows all, and sees all. For every situation you face, give thanks, for he has already worked it out for you! Since we do not have the infinite wisdem of God, we cannot see the otherside of the things we are gong through. Rest, and abide in him, and he won't give you more than you can bear.
I encourage you now to ask him for wisdem, and discernment, so that you may face each challenge confidently, realizing that he is in control.