This probably sounds very hokey, but tonight, I was watching the second Left Behind movie and I just felt very moved to get up a pray. Usually, if I have those feelings, I shove them aside and get on with life. This time, though, I kneeled down by my bed and prayed for salvation, repented my sins and asked for faith. Of course, I didn't just decide this because of watching one movie. I've been thinking about religious concepts and what is true for years. I've always felt such conflict and insecurity about my choice, worried about it, and sometimes so frustrated and confused I've scrapped searching and proudly declared agnosticism. Tonight, I just decided to accept that I have noticed things missing in life, I have had enough of being uncertain and confused. I'm sick of watching like, those Ray Comfort and other videos and feeling uneasy about where I could end up, and I've never been able to totally convince myself that it's all just fictional or silly.
I have a long way to go, of course. I decided I'm going to give myself this chance to listen to God and my conscience, even if I feel doubtful. Anyway, what suggestions do you have for a new Christian? I've been raised in a Christian home, always had Bibles even though I didn't read them with a lot of dedication. I know quite a lot about apologetics, from the other side. What are some useful things for someone like me, who has learned about Christianity a lot from an outsider's POV but not lived it?
Thanks

I have a long way to go, of course. I decided I'm going to give myself this chance to listen to God and my conscience, even if I feel doubtful. Anyway, what suggestions do you have for a new Christian? I've been raised in a Christian home, always had Bibles even though I didn't read them with a lot of dedication. I know quite a lot about apologetics, from the other side. What are some useful things for someone like me, who has learned about Christianity a lot from an outsider's POV but not lived it?
Thanks
