Okay, once upon a time I was Christian...long story short: I lost my faith. It's okay, I'm fine with that.
However, over the period of my 32 years I have had about 6 major events, in which I, or someone close to me was severely hurt. Sometimes that hurt was emotional, sometimes physical, once was actually financial. These were all done by Christians directly because of their Christian faith, often in the name of God. This obviously has caused me to form something of an intense distrust of Christians. While I admit, the first three events certainly did contribute to my loss of Christian faith, my issues with Christianity the religion are far more rooted in terms of philosphy, and simply what I am able to believe. But my issues with Christians, or modern day, Western Christians at least, are based on my own personal experiences.
As a bit of a metaphor of what I feel, when I was a teenager I ate a bad cherry tomato. It was really rotten. I was really sick for eating that, and it was traumatizing. Ever since, I haven't been able to eat cherry tomatoes, as just seeing them makes me queasy. If I do eat one (as happened once when one was hidden in a wrap), I get ill. I can eat normal sized tomatoes just fine, and it's not that I don't like the taste, I just have a mental block about it.
Well, it's sort of the same mental block with putting faith in Christians. If someone tells me about their Christian faith, if I see a cross around their neck, or whatever I just back away. I don't associate with them, I certainly don't put myself in a situation where I have to depend on them. Remember, it was one incident with a cherry tomato, and 6 major incidents with Christians.
Truthfully, I really do feel bad about it. I'm sure there are Christians out there who are perfectly nice, and loving people, and I know that such an admission seems unfair to these people. Yes, it probably is. But that's a rationalization for me to make, and my negativity toward Christians is primarily emotional, or for that matter more of a conditioned response.
This is sort of my way of apologizing in a sense. Particularly to those Christians that really are good people, and don't deserve to be lumped in with the rest. I can only say: I'm sorry, don't take it personally.
It's also a quick means of explanation. I get angry on here a lot, but generally only in response to certain things, and they are very personal. I'm not going to say what they are, or why it is. I will only say that under the circumstances, I believe my anger is understandable. Still, I'm sorry to those that don't deserve it.
However, over the period of my 32 years I have had about 6 major events, in which I, or someone close to me was severely hurt. Sometimes that hurt was emotional, sometimes physical, once was actually financial. These were all done by Christians directly because of their Christian faith, often in the name of God. This obviously has caused me to form something of an intense distrust of Christians. While I admit, the first three events certainly did contribute to my loss of Christian faith, my issues with Christianity the religion are far more rooted in terms of philosphy, and simply what I am able to believe. But my issues with Christians, or modern day, Western Christians at least, are based on my own personal experiences.
As a bit of a metaphor of what I feel, when I was a teenager I ate a bad cherry tomato. It was really rotten. I was really sick for eating that, and it was traumatizing. Ever since, I haven't been able to eat cherry tomatoes, as just seeing them makes me queasy. If I do eat one (as happened once when one was hidden in a wrap), I get ill. I can eat normal sized tomatoes just fine, and it's not that I don't like the taste, I just have a mental block about it.
Well, it's sort of the same mental block with putting faith in Christians. If someone tells me about their Christian faith, if I see a cross around their neck, or whatever I just back away. I don't associate with them, I certainly don't put myself in a situation where I have to depend on them. Remember, it was one incident with a cherry tomato, and 6 major incidents with Christians.
Truthfully, I really do feel bad about it. I'm sure there are Christians out there who are perfectly nice, and loving people, and I know that such an admission seems unfair to these people. Yes, it probably is. But that's a rationalization for me to make, and my negativity toward Christians is primarily emotional, or for that matter more of a conditioned response.
This is sort of my way of apologizing in a sense. Particularly to those Christians that really are good people, and don't deserve to be lumped in with the rest. I can only say: I'm sorry, don't take it personally.
It's also a quick means of explanation. I get angry on here a lot, but generally only in response to certain things, and they are very personal. I'm not going to say what they are, or why it is. I will only say that under the circumstances, I believe my anger is understandable. Still, I'm sorry to those that don't deserve it.
