There is no love in my marriage and I have lost all hope that there will ever be love.
My pain keeps me from working or playing. I hurt all the time and there are few activities I am able to participate in.
I live far from home in a city where no one knows their neighbors.
I have no friends here. Not one. I cannot join them in their interests, so I am passed by. Even if I could, I find no delight in what many delight in because God's laws rule my life.
I seldom leave my house. Where would I go? What would I do? There is little I am able to do.
Yet I'm not depressed. Sure, I feel sad and lonely sometimes, and some days are harder to get through than others.
However, this is my lot in life, what God has given me, and I see no end to it. I have asked but he has said no.
God is teaching me to be content with what I have, and it's a hard lesson. He is teaching me to rely on him. Without him, life is empty and meaningless, and depressing.
God is teaching me to put others before myself. I may have my problems, but I have God to help me through them. Others don't, and that's depressing. I have hope that God will right all wrongs. I have hope that God will ease my suffering. I have hope that God's love will come through many forms, not just marriage.
God has brought me out of poverty. I eat well and lack no essential thing. He has brought me out of danger. I walk safely outside without fear. I have faith that he will also bring me out of my current troubles. I have faith that I will love and be loved.
He has taught me his laws through the bible, and I have learned from them. I have changed my ways and I have changed my heart. I have been disciplined severely but I know that some day I will be blessed.
I have come to know God and understand his words. I understand why bad things happen to good people. I understand why he tells me what I can and cannot do. I understand how my own sins have brought me to the point where I am today.
God has humbled me and brought me low, yet I am not depressed. I have learned that it is better to be at the bottom with God than to be at the top without him.
I am learning that it is better to give than to take. I am learning that helping others brings more satisfaction than being helped. I am learning to submit fully to him, even when it's hard, even when there is nothing in it for me, because his glory is more important than mine. His will is more important than mine.
My life has been hard for many years now but I have God to help me through. I'm not alone and in the dark anymore. I wouldn't trade my current life for my old one. I'm a better person now. I have hope now, when I didn't before. I understand why things happen now, when I didn't before. I don't have nightmares anymore. I don't feel anxiety anymore. I am no longer hurt by the terrible things that have been done to me. I am no longer a slave to the desires of this world. I have learned what is important in life and what is not.
My life is not good and few in my shoes would be able to get through it intact. There are people out there somewhere who would do much better than me though. Maybe I will find them someday. It is time for me to stop sitting here day after day, doing nothing for anyone. I can't do much but surely I can do something.
I've learned alot in my life, so maybe I can share what I've learned. I've learned to handle money wisely and could give some practical advice. I've learned about love, and what is not love, so perhaps I can help others avoid the mistakes I've made. I've learned to find happiness in the simple things, so maybe I can help there too. I've learned alot about dogs and have good advice available. Perhaps I can help someone avoid making mistakes, or putting their dog to sleep.
Most importantly, I've learned about God. I still have alot to learn but maybe I can help people figure out where they went wrong, or help them understand why something is happening. Anything I can do to help, I am happy to help.
Gosh, I never in a million hears expected this post to turn out like this! I see those here who are sad and lonely and depressed and have no hope, and I want to help if I can. That's all. Life is good when we help eachother! I never had anyone I could turn to and that's not a good feeling, so if anyone needs a friend then I will be happy to be your friend.
My pain keeps me from working or playing. I hurt all the time and there are few activities I am able to participate in.
I live far from home in a city where no one knows their neighbors.
I have no friends here. Not one. I cannot join them in their interests, so I am passed by. Even if I could, I find no delight in what many delight in because God's laws rule my life.
I seldom leave my house. Where would I go? What would I do? There is little I am able to do.
Yet I'm not depressed. Sure, I feel sad and lonely sometimes, and some days are harder to get through than others.
However, this is my lot in life, what God has given me, and I see no end to it. I have asked but he has said no.
God is teaching me to be content with what I have, and it's a hard lesson. He is teaching me to rely on him. Without him, life is empty and meaningless, and depressing.
God is teaching me to put others before myself. I may have my problems, but I have God to help me through them. Others don't, and that's depressing. I have hope that God will right all wrongs. I have hope that God will ease my suffering. I have hope that God's love will come through many forms, not just marriage.
God has brought me out of poverty. I eat well and lack no essential thing. He has brought me out of danger. I walk safely outside without fear. I have faith that he will also bring me out of my current troubles. I have faith that I will love and be loved.
He has taught me his laws through the bible, and I have learned from them. I have changed my ways and I have changed my heart. I have been disciplined severely but I know that some day I will be blessed.
I have come to know God and understand his words. I understand why bad things happen to good people. I understand why he tells me what I can and cannot do. I understand how my own sins have brought me to the point where I am today.
God has humbled me and brought me low, yet I am not depressed. I have learned that it is better to be at the bottom with God than to be at the top without him.
I am learning that it is better to give than to take. I am learning that helping others brings more satisfaction than being helped. I am learning to submit fully to him, even when it's hard, even when there is nothing in it for me, because his glory is more important than mine. His will is more important than mine.
My life has been hard for many years now but I have God to help me through. I'm not alone and in the dark anymore. I wouldn't trade my current life for my old one. I'm a better person now. I have hope now, when I didn't before. I understand why things happen now, when I didn't before. I don't have nightmares anymore. I don't feel anxiety anymore. I am no longer hurt by the terrible things that have been done to me. I am no longer a slave to the desires of this world. I have learned what is important in life and what is not.
My life is not good and few in my shoes would be able to get through it intact. There are people out there somewhere who would do much better than me though. Maybe I will find them someday. It is time for me to stop sitting here day after day, doing nothing for anyone. I can't do much but surely I can do something.
I've learned alot in my life, so maybe I can share what I've learned. I've learned to handle money wisely and could give some practical advice. I've learned about love, and what is not love, so perhaps I can help others avoid the mistakes I've made. I've learned to find happiness in the simple things, so maybe I can help there too. I've learned alot about dogs and have good advice available. Perhaps I can help someone avoid making mistakes, or putting their dog to sleep.
Most importantly, I've learned about God. I still have alot to learn but maybe I can help people figure out where they went wrong, or help them understand why something is happening. Anything I can do to help, I am happy to help.
Gosh, I never in a million hears expected this post to turn out like this! I see those here who are sad and lonely and depressed and have no hope, and I want to help if I can. That's all. Life is good when we help eachother! I never had anyone I could turn to and that's not a good feeling, so if anyone needs a friend then I will be happy to be your friend.
