I'm not surprised that my comments confuse you. I get this a lot from new believers in particular when I teach them "Christianity 101" at my church.
First of all, the "fear of the Lord" is not a craven fear; it is not the fear a slave has toward a hard and cruel master; it is reverential awe, a sort of awe-struck recognition of the incredible majesty, and power, and glory of God.
If you obey God, then your obedience must begin with the First and Great Commandment which is to love God with all of your being. (Matthew 22:36-38) It's the FIRST and GREAT commandment, right? Stands to reason, then, that it is the beginning place of your obedience to God.
There is a story Jesus tells of men who stand before God at the Great Judgment and hear Him say, "Depart from me. I never knew you." The men protest, describing their deeds done in Christ's name: exorcism, prophesying, and miracles. How could they be going to Hell when they had done all these good things in Jesus' name? (Matthew 7:21-23) The answer is in what they didn't say. They make no claims to loving Christ or God. They never claim to have obeyed the First and Great Commandment. No, they skipped that one and hoped no one would notice. But God is serious when He says that love for Him is the ground out of which all of our other obedience is to arise (1 Corinthians 13:1-3). If we get busy going to church, and praying, and reading the Bible but never actually obeying the First and Great Commandment, we will stand before God one day and hear Him say, "Depart from me. I never knew you."
So, don't fear Hell. Don't fear God. Fear a heart that is cold and cowering toward God, a heart that never fills with love for Him.
One other thing: The only place you can get a proper love for God is from God. He doesn't want from you your own corrupted human love, but His own perfect, holy, self-sacrificing love. If you find your heart cold and flat toward God, ask Him to fill you with His love by His Spirit. But remember: God only pours Himself - His love, peace and joy - into a life surrendered to Him.