hey brothers and sisters,
At the advice of my older and wiser elders and upon much prayer, I have decided to leave the forums. The fellowship I have found here is wonderfull and the knowledge I have gained here is imeasurable, but now I must leave and begin to really focus on putting my faith into action. God made it clear to me that putting in the time I was on the boards--though it is a good cause--was distracting me from actually walking the path I need to walk. He made clear that my focus needs to be on prayer and following through on tasks to the perfection and glory of God. As such, I will be taking a leave from my online activities and seeking to center my life around prayer and school. I plan on saying the rosary upon waking each morning and I have already just begun a life of interior prayer. I have been saying the Jesus prayer a few hundred times a day now and I have already increased my time in prayer drastically, but I have much further to go. This upcoming semester is going to be extremely time consuming (as I will be graduating in summer), and when I am not studying I will either be praying or reading from my various spiritual books on interior prayer and sainthood (Imitation of Christ, Bible, Philokalia, etc).
Please pray for me if you have a chance, as God's grace is what will be carrying me through the end of my academic career. I thank the Lord very much for helping me to see what I need to do now, instead of being distracted by my future plans. As some of you know, I will be leaving society and living in a monestary so I can totally and completely dedicate my life to God. But recently, I was letting this vision consume me and distract me from what I need to do today; which is complete school and get a job for a few years to help my family out. I have realized, that what may be a noble cause, can actually be used against us to take us away from what we really should be doing. It's the timing in our lives that is so critical, and discerning when things are to happen. I am just so thankfull that God is taking an unworthy man like me, and leading me to a life of dedicated devotion in the love and suffering of Christ.
Anyway, I just wanted to share this with you and thank you all for your wonderfull friendship and support. I have gained so much knowledge here, which is both a great blessing and a heavey burden, as I am even more accountable now and will face a harsher judgement. Anyway, thank you all and may the peace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you always.
At the advice of my older and wiser elders and upon much prayer, I have decided to leave the forums. The fellowship I have found here is wonderfull and the knowledge I have gained here is imeasurable, but now I must leave and begin to really focus on putting my faith into action. God made it clear to me that putting in the time I was on the boards--though it is a good cause--was distracting me from actually walking the path I need to walk. He made clear that my focus needs to be on prayer and following through on tasks to the perfection and glory of God. As such, I will be taking a leave from my online activities and seeking to center my life around prayer and school. I plan on saying the rosary upon waking each morning and I have already just begun a life of interior prayer. I have been saying the Jesus prayer a few hundred times a day now and I have already increased my time in prayer drastically, but I have much further to go. This upcoming semester is going to be extremely time consuming (as I will be graduating in summer), and when I am not studying I will either be praying or reading from my various spiritual books on interior prayer and sainthood (Imitation of Christ, Bible, Philokalia, etc).
Please pray for me if you have a chance, as God's grace is what will be carrying me through the end of my academic career. I thank the Lord very much for helping me to see what I need to do now, instead of being distracted by my future plans. As some of you know, I will be leaving society and living in a monestary so I can totally and completely dedicate my life to God. But recently, I was letting this vision consume me and distract me from what I need to do today; which is complete school and get a job for a few years to help my family out. I have realized, that what may be a noble cause, can actually be used against us to take us away from what we really should be doing. It's the timing in our lives that is so critical, and discerning when things are to happen. I am just so thankfull that God is taking an unworthy man like me, and leading me to a life of dedicated devotion in the love and suffering of Christ.
Anyway, I just wanted to share this with you and thank you all for your wonderfull friendship and support. I have gained so much knowledge here, which is both a great blessing and a heavey burden, as I am even more accountable now and will face a harsher judgement. Anyway, thank you all and may the peace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you always.


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