Hi Everyone.
I have been separated from my husband Since September and from the beginning he stated he did not love me anymore and I just could not accept it because he always acted like he did until then. He hid it really well to say the least, even wrote me a poem 3 months prior and sent me flowers. I won't go into all the details of our marriage other than there is no other woman, our divorce is pending, we have 2 little girls, and I am just lost. I guess when he first left I knew he was just so angry and I thought he was just saying he did not love me to hurt me but as months have passed I finally had a calm conversation with him the other day in which he told me he had not loved me in almost a year and that he "tried" for the kids' sake. I feel like this is the day he left all over again. I guess it is because I was hoping out of desperation that he had love left but that is not the case. I just feel like my life is a lie. I've been so deceived since he was going way out of his way to express his "fake love" to me. I just don't know what to do from God's standpoint. I pray for acceptance, guidance, and for my husband. I am still as much in love with him now than I was when we married 5 years ago. I just don't know how to make myself not love him or if that is what God even wants. I have accepted my marriage is over and told my husband this and told him I wanted it over as quickly as possible now that I realize he has no feelings left for me. Have any of you gone through this? How did you make it? I can barely function. It's just a dark, deep place. Prayers and thoughts appreciated. Thanks for listening.
Kali
I have been separated from my husband Since September and from the beginning he stated he did not love me anymore and I just could not accept it because he always acted like he did until then. He hid it really well to say the least, even wrote me a poem 3 months prior and sent me flowers. I won't go into all the details of our marriage other than there is no other woman, our divorce is pending, we have 2 little girls, and I am just lost. I guess when he first left I knew he was just so angry and I thought he was just saying he did not love me to hurt me but as months have passed I finally had a calm conversation with him the other day in which he told me he had not loved me in almost a year and that he "tried" for the kids' sake. I feel like this is the day he left all over again. I guess it is because I was hoping out of desperation that he had love left but that is not the case. I just feel like my life is a lie. I've been so deceived since he was going way out of his way to express his "fake love" to me. I just don't know what to do from God's standpoint. I pray for acceptance, guidance, and for my husband. I am still as much in love with him now than I was when we married 5 years ago. I just don't know how to make myself not love him or if that is what God even wants. I have accepted my marriage is over and told my husband this and told him I wanted it over as quickly as possible now that I realize he has no feelings left for me. Have any of you gone through this? How did you make it? I can barely function. It's just a dark, deep place. Prayers and thoughts appreciated. Thanks for listening.
Kali