Of course prayer heals anything, and God is always there with us, but I was just dealt a terrible blow and after praying for days I still very "broken hearted".
I am a single 32 year old male. Three years ago I moved cross-country to take a new job. Here I met a wonderful young girl who worked with me. She invited me to her church (which is now also my church) and we became really good friends.
After a few months of friendship, we both started developing feelings for each other. We started dating, but our happiness only lasted a few weeks. She went back to her native country to visit some relatives and she came back a completely different person. She had been raped on that trip (I didn't find this out until months later).
From that incident she became pregnant, and of course her faith was tested in ways most people never get tested. Not even considering an abortion, she had the baby.
During her pregnancy I rarely had contact with her since she became really depressed and didn't want to see or speak to anybody.
At first I thought my feelings for her would dissappear with time, but I never really stopped loving her. A few months after her baby was born, I convinced her to come back to work with us. She agreed, and we have been working together again for almost two years now.
Together we have done amazing things for the community and for the grace of God. We make a great team.
She had made it clear to me that she wanted to be alone with her baby for a very long time, so I didn't pursue a relationship with her. We just became really really good friends, although I have told her many times over the last two years that I still love her and that I'd be willing to marry her and be a father to her baby.
A few months ago she ran into her "high school sweetheart"....her first and only serious boyfriend, who has just gotten divorced and like her, also has a child. He started seeking her advice on single parenting, etc.....and they started going out to dinner, movies, etc. I was starting to feel left out, but it really hit me hard about a month ago when he started going to our church and sitting with her.
She knows how I feel about her, but she kept telling me that they were "just friends" and that he needed her friendship right now.
This week she dropped the bomb on me. They have decided to get back together. He also asked her to leave work and got her a job in his company making a lot more money.
She is completely blinded by this guy, but I can't compete. He is very good looking and very rich, and in the eyes of the world I am just a regular Joe who worships God for a living.
Today was her last day at work. She left about an hour ago and I feel destroyed inside. I feel like I have lost her after spending the last three years waiting for her. This guy got her after a chance meeting and a few weeks of expensive dinners and gifts.
I know that comparing this to some other cases I should not be complaining at all, but this pain is just too deep. God has healed my heart before, but I can't begin to find an answer on this.
Thanks for any advice you can provide,or just for taking the time to read this rant. Please keep me in your prayers because I feel very cold and lonely right now. God Bless you all!!
I am a single 32 year old male. Three years ago I moved cross-country to take a new job. Here I met a wonderful young girl who worked with me. She invited me to her church (which is now also my church) and we became really good friends.
After a few months of friendship, we both started developing feelings for each other. We started dating, but our happiness only lasted a few weeks. She went back to her native country to visit some relatives and she came back a completely different person. She had been raped on that trip (I didn't find this out until months later).
From that incident she became pregnant, and of course her faith was tested in ways most people never get tested. Not even considering an abortion, she had the baby.
During her pregnancy I rarely had contact with her since she became really depressed and didn't want to see or speak to anybody.
At first I thought my feelings for her would dissappear with time, but I never really stopped loving her. A few months after her baby was born, I convinced her to come back to work with us. She agreed, and we have been working together again for almost two years now.
Together we have done amazing things for the community and for the grace of God. We make a great team.
She had made it clear to me that she wanted to be alone with her baby for a very long time, so I didn't pursue a relationship with her. We just became really really good friends, although I have told her many times over the last two years that I still love her and that I'd be willing to marry her and be a father to her baby.
A few months ago she ran into her "high school sweetheart"....her first and only serious boyfriend, who has just gotten divorced and like her, also has a child. He started seeking her advice on single parenting, etc.....and they started going out to dinner, movies, etc. I was starting to feel left out, but it really hit me hard about a month ago when he started going to our church and sitting with her.
She knows how I feel about her, but she kept telling me that they were "just friends" and that he needed her friendship right now.
This week she dropped the bomb on me. They have decided to get back together. He also asked her to leave work and got her a job in his company making a lot more money.
She is completely blinded by this guy, but I can't compete. He is very good looking and very rich, and in the eyes of the world I am just a regular Joe who worships God for a living.
Today was her last day at work. She left about an hour ago and I feel destroyed inside. I feel like I have lost her after spending the last three years waiting for her. This guy got her after a chance meeting and a few weeks of expensive dinners and gifts.
I know that comparing this to some other cases I should not be complaining at all, but this pain is just too deep. God has healed my heart before, but I can't begin to find an answer on this.
Thanks for any advice you can provide,or just for taking the time to read this rant. Please keep me in your prayers because I feel very cold and lonely right now. God Bless you all!!
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