I suffer from fibromyalgia, plus a very bad back. Most of the time my pain and fatigue is low, but it doesn't take much to upset the system.
Some days I just don't do as much, I may sleep a little extra, I may put off what needs to be done until tomorrow, I take breaks, etc. My question is, sometimes I feel guilty about being (feeling) lazy in the eyes of God. Am I to push through the pain and fatigue or seriously take my time, be easier on my life due to this? I can't be a hard working woman all day, I can't be the bread winner, or even work at that. I don't know why I have this attitude that I need to suck it up and keep pushing, maybe it's due to the "world" saying if you sleep a little more, take breaks, don't work your butt off, your considered lazy.
I sometimes have to pamper myself, and I just feel it's selfish...even though it's for my fibro. Please help me understand God is not giving me the evil eye and saying, ah you didn't do this, this and this, you sluggard. (and honestly at the time I know he is not like this, but in the down times, I think about it)
Sometimes when I need to rest I say, God, I am so tired, I just need to lay down for a little bit. lol.
I was a go getter at work. I was a RN, working on a busy floor. I was so obsessed with gotta get it done, go, go, go. If I didn't have certain things done at a certain time, I would get panicky. I hated to be behind. Even in nursing school I had always finished first and had to help others with their patients. lol. Maybe this fibro is a way to slow me down. I have no clue.
Thanks for your advise
lilk
Some days I just don't do as much, I may sleep a little extra, I may put off what needs to be done until tomorrow, I take breaks, etc. My question is, sometimes I feel guilty about being (feeling) lazy in the eyes of God. Am I to push through the pain and fatigue or seriously take my time, be easier on my life due to this? I can't be a hard working woman all day, I can't be the bread winner, or even work at that. I don't know why I have this attitude that I need to suck it up and keep pushing, maybe it's due to the "world" saying if you sleep a little more, take breaks, don't work your butt off, your considered lazy.
I sometimes have to pamper myself, and I just feel it's selfish...even though it's for my fibro. Please help me understand God is not giving me the evil eye and saying, ah you didn't do this, this and this, you sluggard. (and honestly at the time I know he is not like this, but in the down times, I think about it)
Sometimes when I need to rest I say, God, I am so tired, I just need to lay down for a little bit. lol.
I was a go getter at work. I was a RN, working on a busy floor. I was so obsessed with gotta get it done, go, go, go. If I didn't have certain things done at a certain time, I would get panicky. I hated to be behind. Even in nursing school I had always finished first and had to help others with their patients. lol. Maybe this fibro is a way to slow me down. I have no clue.
Thanks for your advise
lilk