- May 10, 2017
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Methodist
- Marital Status
- Single
- Politics
- US-Libertarian
Caveat: I know it's not a healthy place to be, but it's where I am. Let's be honest, this world isn't always about sunshine and rainbows. It's a battle between light and dark, and right now it just feels like dark is winning in this state of my life.
Caveat 2: New account, this isn't my first post, I just don't remember the info to access my old account. Probably had 1k posts across the board.
About me: I'm one of those people who otherwise seems to have things together. Moved to North Carolina, at one of the top seminaries in the country, which is a *total* God thing, been excelling, I try to be the best I can. Serving in music ministries / etc, making friends, blahblahblah, I swear everything else is together and 95% of my life is sunshine and rainbows, but then there's the 5%...
For example, I go out with friends tonight, someone whom I went on a few dates with happened to show up with her BF. And of course they're at my table, I talked to the guy, he's genuinely an OK guy, I liked him, but he basically *was* me. Like, we could pass for brothers. So, I try to figure out what the heck kind of curse I'm living with.
Stuff like this happens all the time, and it's just wearing and wearing on me, I know I'm not some sort of relationship Tobit/Job, but man it gets tough to keep putting myself out there to constantly get crushed.
Anyone else feel this sort of brokenness?
Caveat 2: New account, this isn't my first post, I just don't remember the info to access my old account. Probably had 1k posts across the board.
About me: I'm one of those people who otherwise seems to have things together. Moved to North Carolina, at one of the top seminaries in the country, which is a *total* God thing, been excelling, I try to be the best I can. Serving in music ministries / etc, making friends, blahblahblah, I swear everything else is together and 95% of my life is sunshine and rainbows, but then there's the 5%...
For example, I go out with friends tonight, someone whom I went on a few dates with happened to show up with her BF. And of course they're at my table, I talked to the guy, he's genuinely an OK guy, I liked him, but he basically *was* me. Like, we could pass for brothers. So, I try to figure out what the heck kind of curse I'm living with.
Stuff like this happens all the time, and it's just wearing and wearing on me, I know I'm not some sort of relationship Tobit/Job, but man it gets tough to keep putting myself out there to constantly get crushed.
Anyone else feel this sort of brokenness?